Life is Tough

Lately, I have been feeling beyond stressed.  I have a lot of school deadlines quickly approaching, and work deadlines also quickly approaching, and quite honestly, I don't feel like doing any of them. I want to sleep. I feel like I need to have a nervous breakdown and then I will be okay again.

I've been worried about my friend who I learned about the weight loss program from, I haven't scene him in a while, and when I have scene him, he has looked, well, worried. But today, I was able to catch up with him. We are both feeling somewhat of a burn out, while we are doing this program. We miss normal people food, but at the same time, we know that we are doing what is best for our bodies, and that is making them healthy.

I know that this doesn't really tickle anyone's fancy, but in case you are curious, we calculated how much, together, as a group of four people we have lost, since last July, the grand total is 255 pounds.

As I have mentioned before, the company is offering 40 dollars off of their variety packages for a limited time only. We have been trying to take an advantage of this killer deal, so we submitted a couple of orders this past week. Today, I found out that that limited time is ending on Monday. I decided to check out bank account to determine if we could afford one more order before this offer expires, only to discover, in pure shock, horror, and plain anger that our account had been double charged for one order. One order for 299, went through yesterday. Another payment, that was not attached to any order, went through today, for the same amount. I called the company, and they told me they I had no idea what I was talking about, while I was staring at our bank account online, plainly seeing that another 299 debit to the same company, went through. Because of this "mistake" on their part, and because I ran some errands assuming we had the money in the bank, we ended up over drafted. I was more than angry to find ourselves overdrawn, to no fault of our own.  

I went to the bank, and filed a dispute of charges. We should have the money back within 3-5 business days. But because of this, we are out of the running to get another package and take an advantage the killer deal, yet again. I felt defeated, violated and disappointed. My plan to save money, was literally, stolen from us, by someone else.

But then I thought, what a blessing this can turn out to be. Instead of being confined to packages that are pre-designed, we can now, once again, create out own orders, thus deciding what we are eating, and our cost! Returning back to our favorites, I think just might be the kick start I need to get out of the "burn out" funk I currently find myself.  I predict that our next order will consist mainly of mac n cheese, and brownies. Perhaps, I am just being an optimist but I think this whole issue with the bank and being overcharged happened for the better.

Today, while I was making my lean and green meal, I recognized something. I am now cooking. When I got burned last year, I couldn't go near the stove, and sometimes even the sink. I have flashbacks of the day I got burned, and  sometimes, it's just too much to handle.  Dean has done a majority of the cooking since my incident. I've also never really cooked chicken, I'm always worried that it won't be cooked through or something, but over the last few weeks, I have been cooking chicken, all by myself! That's a huge step forward if you ask me.