Reveal: Cancelled

Greetings Monday Morning Blogstalkers!

I wanted so much for this blog to be nothing more then my final reveal photo announcing I have lost 100 pounds. I had too high hopes of losing four pounds last week.  I gave considerate thought to putting it up, but decided that I could not be a woman of integrity, if it was not completely true.  Because the scale did not clock me in at the centennial club today, I am going to cancel my free photo shoot on Wednesday.

I have given considerate thought to jumping ship this week, I will run out of food within the week, and I do need to order more, and it takes one week for the food to arrive.  We are hoping that I get my student loan money in this week,  and then I will purchase my final order of food with some of that money. My final order! That alone calls for a celebration! I'm excited to not have to spend so  much money on food. And I'm excited to head for transition. I think my first vegetable that I am going to indulge myself on when I hit transition mode, is brussel sprouts! During the weight loss portion of the program, those are forbidden. But during transition, I can eat all vegetables again!

I would say that I have no doubt I will hit the 100 pounds lost one week from today, but if I can pull off an elaborate plan of buying a car, probably in a different state, we will be going out of town for the weekend. And I can guarantee that I will not stay on plan throughout the weekend. For one, I will be out of food. Secondly, one of the reason's we are going home is to attend the Fresno Greek Food Fest, and I'm going to eat some Greek food! Definitely in moderation of course! I've learned that even after a few bites of food, I often feel very, very full. 

The scale reveleaed the numbers 147. That's two pounds away from crossing the finish line and joining the centennial club ! It's possible that I will hit 145 by the time we leave for California, I just got a keep an eye on the pesky scale. If that happens, there will be a reveal, even if it is not on Monday!

T Got Ran Over by the Disappointment Truck

For a while I have been on the hunt for an outfit for my final reveal. I decided on an outfit, I just needed to do things like..... buy my right pant size! The most current size pant that I purchased was 12, and I quickly shrunk out of those.  Yes of course, we got pants at the free clothing exchange but none of the ones I got fit to my liking. Maybe I'm just partial to a particular brand, style, fit, etc. And that's okay with me!

Last week I decided to stop in at Rhaposidielle, to find nothing more then disappointment.  Apparently this brand only caters to size 0 folks.  I thought "after all I have done, nearing a 100 pound loss, I'm still  not good enough. Society tells me I'm still too fat" Well I quickly banished these thoughts, and decided that I would just stick to Target.

I decided to crack open the textbook that was supposed to accompany my journey all along. Inside there is a self-check quiz. You read the questions, rate yourself, measure yourself, tally up your score and find where you fit. After I took this little quiz I learned that, the creator of the program still considers me unhealthy! This is because my waste is still 1 inch to big! And because of my sleeping habits, I have insomnia. I have always had insomnia, sometimes I sleep great, sometimes I can't get more than an hour or so of sleep. Yes, I have tried everything to cure myself of it, but because I don't get 7 hours of sleep every single night, Dr. A still considers me to be unhealthy. :(

Dean has been adamant that I don't need new pants, somewhat citing the high cost of such a purchase. Well, sly me I began looking for bargains online, just keeping an eye out for some good sales. I couldn't really find anything, until this week. I had planned on running errands Wednesday, so I figured I could do some shopping while I was out.  I stopped at Target where I was greeted with a sign that read; "All Jeans, 40% off!" Yeah! Major score.  I need new jeans, and need to save a buck! So, I marched on over to the jean rack, thinking "I'm sure all the good ones are gone, since everyone is doing back to school shopping, and this is a great save!" Well, I found my new size, in my favorite cut and brand, along with a t-shirt I need for my final reveal, and marched myself into the fitting rooms to determine my final size.  Yes, I know that I have 3 more pounds to melt before I'm completely done, but I am positive those 3 pounds aren't going to shift my pant size, and hello, major sale this week!

As I looked at myself in those full length mirrors I stood there in shock and awe. I used to be disgusted at the way I looked when looking into those things. (We only have a tiny mirror in our house  that's maybe 8x7 width) But today, I was darn proud! I thought: "I have done it. I am buying my final pair of pants of my weight loss journey."  My. Final. Pair. Of. Pants. That is a milestone!!!

Update regarding the food order: Unfortunately, I will be unable to purchase a new food order this week, like I wanted to, and needed to. Although I will most likely cross the finish line by Monday, I will enter the transition phase, where I will wean myself off of Medifast Meal Replacements, and begin to introduce normal grocery foods to my diet again. Transition will take at least 1 month.  I can't purchase this because Dean got a ticket back in February, I didn't find out about it until debt collectors called wanting the payment, and also being notified he had a warrant out because he couldn't tell me about the ticket 6 months ago. So, needless to say, I had to take my food order budget, and bail him out of the dog house. We should be getting some money in next week, so I will just have to wait a bit longer to purchase my food. That's okay, I suppose it could be much worse, he could be in the slammer, I suppose.

If things go as planned, I will be getting a free photo shoot done a week from today.  Another person doing the weightloss program here in the Las Vegas is a photographer and is providing free sessions to anyone who uses the program and reaches their goal! I made my appointment for a week from today, we'll see how that goes. Who's excited?

Closing In!

Good Monday Morning blog stalkers!

Last Week, was very rough. I decided to go off plan, not because of finances or laziness or anything of that sort, but because I had one demon of the stomach flu for five days! I knew it would be a waste of money to eat my meal replacements when my body couldn't handle any food. I survived off can soups, and a couple of slices of toast,  once I could keep the toast inside me I knew I could go back on plan.

Last week didn't have much to talk about (for obvious reasons) until Sunday. I went to church, including relief society.  Several ladies asked if I had lost weight, someone even said I was barely recognizable! I did admit to losing weight, and the ladies inquired about the program. I explained it briefly, and gave them my co-branded website. Throughout the afternoon, several of these ladies filled out the inquiry form on my website, so I guess I have some calls to make today to explain it further!

While the kickbacks on the commission of the food is appreciated, I have decided that being a health coach isn't about the money. I think its more important to assist others in becoming healthy. Health is really all that matters.

I predict that I will order my very last food order this week. I am quickly closing in on the 100 pound mark, where I will start transition!

I want to purchase a new outfit for my final reveal photo (hopefully to be taken either this Saturday or next) but Dean is adamant I don't. He doesn't understand that clothes that are too big, are uncomfortable, and embarrassing. He always states that we just got new clothes from the clothing exchange, but what he doesn't understand it that a lot of the shirts needs undershirts for modesty purposes.  I found some for cheap tees at Old Navy that can be used for this purpose, so maybe I'll treat myself to an outing to the mall later in the week and get these too make the free clothes work.

The flu lasted until Thursday, and I went back on plan on Friday, I  was worried that I would gain weight back since I was so sick last week. The scale clocked me in at a grand total of 148 this morning. That is three pounds away from crossing the finish line, and joining the centennial club. Just three pounds! We had planned on going to Disneyland for celebration, but I don't think we are going to that anymore. It's a complicated story, we don't have a car, or the funds, but I also think I would rather save the money we would use for that, for fertility treatments. Oh, and by the way, I did launch a gofundme fundraiser in hopes of raising some of the money for treatments, now that I am healthy enough to proceed!


In case you are mathematically challenged like myself, I have now lost a grand total of 97 pounds, three more to go!

Slaying the Giant

Well, hey look, its Monday... Time for a Journey in review wrap up (almost)

When I got married in 2007, my weight ballooned up. I am sure most of the weight is contributed to the crap that Dean and I would eat on a daily basis.  In Fresno, my primary care doctor even offered the suggestion that I get a dog, because that would force me to exercise on a daily basis. (you know, walking it and all) Unfortunately that was not an option for our living arrangements at the time.

Time marched on, and so did the numbers on the scale. They just kept skyrocketing.

We found ourselves in a new city. It seemed like it was a prime area for all sorts of fad weight loss solutions and advertisements. These include: diet pills, fat freezing procedures, surgeries, you name it. We have had our fair share of advertisements for these. Admittedly, I looked into most of these, including surgeries such as gastric bypass.  Then one day, I was educated on the fabulous program I found.  After months of watching a friend shrink, I decided to take the plunge and do the program as well.

This past week I learned that there are family members who have paraded progress photos around to the not- to-tech-savvy generation. For a brief moment, I felt angered. I wanted to surprise people with my new body in person. But then I decided to be happy about it, I learned that I have more supporters then I ever dreamed of.  I had planned to do a final reveal to family and friends in August, in Utah, and then another one in California.  But then I realized the event we were going to Utah for in the first place, is next week. I can't go since I don't have a car, or the funds to rent a car. So it's okay that my family is doing mini-reveals for me, before I'm done. 

Thursday I found myself in a very tight pinch. It was the first day that kitty Kat Kay was getting very ill, so I took him to the vet. What I thought was hoping to be a brief appointment, was an all day appointment. I didn't have the gas to go back and forth, nor did I want to, especially since I was in the truck, the vehicle that likes to shut off if you drive it too much in one day.  I had brought one medifast bar in preparation for the day, but quickly learned that was not going to be enough. I looked a round at the shopping mall I was in. There was a chipotle, KFC, IHOP, and Denny's.  I opted to go to Denny's, knowing they had chicken, steak, and vegetables.  When the waiter man brought my steak, he also brought the famous A1 sauce. I looked at it, and gave a moment thought to using some on my food. But then I thought, " I didn't control how much seasoning went into the food. I better not add anything extra". (I can use three condiments per day, this includes seasoning.) So I decided to exercise self control and not add the extra calories.  The food was fabulous without the extra calories. 

Saturday was the annual free clothing exchange. I was hoping to find some slacks for professional occasions. Every pair that I touched and thought " that feels like a good fabric, I wonder if they'll fit." Turned out to be the ones I donated!!! Size 20-24.  Therefore, I was unable to find slacks that fit my current physique.   Although I was unable to find slacks, I was able to find shorts, pants, and shirts. Here are a couple of photos:

Size 6 shorts. and a small shirt 

Size small Christmas pjs 

Size 10 dress

My current motivational song for my journey is Newsies Seize the Day, the Lyrics are as followed:

Now is the time to seize the day
Stare down the odds and seize the day
Minute by minute that's how you win it
We will find a way
But let us seize the day
Courage cannot erase our fear
Courage is when we face our fear
Tell those with power safe in their tower
We will not obey!

DAVEY & JACK
Behold the brave battalion that stands side by side
Too few in number and too proud to hide
Then say to the others who did not follow through
You're still our brothers, and we will fight for you

 

Now is the time to seize the day
Stare down the odds and seize the day

 

Once we've begun
If we stand as one
Someday becomes somehow
And a prayer becomes a vow

 

Now is the time to seize the day
Answer the call and don't delay

Wrongs will be righted
If we're united
Let us seize the day

Now let 'em hear it loud and clear

Like it or not we're drawing near

Proud and defiant
We'll slay the giant
Judgment day is here
Houston to Harlem, look what's begun
One for all and all for one!

 

I think the song speaks a lot of truth, it really has been a minute by minute journey, full of defiance, telling fast food giants, and candy makers that I don't need them anymore. And I have stared down the odds of people telling me I shouldn't do it, and such.

When I started out my journey, my goal was to land myself in the healthy category on the BMI chart (the one produced my cdc.gov).... The scale this morning revealed the numbers: 153.... Therefore this does in fact mean I have done it I have met my original goal even though I have a new goal of getting to 145 now. I am in the healthy category golly gee willackers I have slayed the Giant!!!  

 

Update: I was smacked in the face with the stomach flu shortly after weighing myself this morning. Two hours later, I decided to weigh myself again, 151.  I lost 2 pounds in 2 hours, just from being sick. However, I am no dummie and I'm sure that once I am well again, these 2 will come back. Also, due to me being so sick today, I am going off medifast until further notice. I am not going to waste all those meals and money, when nothing is staying inside me. I know I need to eat bland foods that are soft of my stomach, until I am well again.

 

But, this blog is serving the announcement that I HAVE REACHED THE HEALHTY CATEGORY!!!!!! (As a reminder, I started out in the severely obese category)