T Got Ran Over by the Disappointment Truck

For a while I have been on the hunt for an outfit for my final reveal. I decided on an outfit, I just needed to do things like..... buy my right pant size! The most current size pant that I purchased was 12, and I quickly shrunk out of those.  Yes of course, we got pants at the free clothing exchange but none of the ones I got fit to my liking. Maybe I'm just partial to a particular brand, style, fit, etc. And that's okay with me!

Last week I decided to stop in at Rhaposidielle, to find nothing more then disappointment.  Apparently this brand only caters to size 0 folks.  I thought "after all I have done, nearing a 100 pound loss, I'm still  not good enough. Society tells me I'm still too fat" Well I quickly banished these thoughts, and decided that I would just stick to Target.

I decided to crack open the textbook that was supposed to accompany my journey all along. Inside there is a self-check quiz. You read the questions, rate yourself, measure yourself, tally up your score and find where you fit. After I took this little quiz I learned that, the creator of the program still considers me unhealthy! This is because my waste is still 1 inch to big! And because of my sleeping habits, I have insomnia. I have always had insomnia, sometimes I sleep great, sometimes I can't get more than an hour or so of sleep. Yes, I have tried everything to cure myself of it, but because I don't get 7 hours of sleep every single night, Dr. A still considers me to be unhealthy. :(

Dean has been adamant that I don't need new pants, somewhat citing the high cost of such a purchase. Well, sly me I began looking for bargains online, just keeping an eye out for some good sales. I couldn't really find anything, until this week. I had planned on running errands Wednesday, so I figured I could do some shopping while I was out.  I stopped at Target where I was greeted with a sign that read; "All Jeans, 40% off!" Yeah! Major score.  I need new jeans, and need to save a buck! So, I marched on over to the jean rack, thinking "I'm sure all the good ones are gone, since everyone is doing back to school shopping, and this is a great save!" Well, I found my new size, in my favorite cut and brand, along with a t-shirt I need for my final reveal, and marched myself into the fitting rooms to determine my final size.  Yes, I know that I have 3 more pounds to melt before I'm completely done, but I am positive those 3 pounds aren't going to shift my pant size, and hello, major sale this week!

As I looked at myself in those full length mirrors I stood there in shock and awe. I used to be disgusted at the way I looked when looking into those things. (We only have a tiny mirror in our house  that's maybe 8x7 width) But today, I was darn proud! I thought: "I have done it. I am buying my final pair of pants of my weight loss journey."  My. Final. Pair. Of. Pants. That is a milestone!!!

Update regarding the food order: Unfortunately, I will be unable to purchase a new food order this week, like I wanted to, and needed to. Although I will most likely cross the finish line by Monday, I will enter the transition phase, where I will wean myself off of Medifast Meal Replacements, and begin to introduce normal grocery foods to my diet again. Transition will take at least 1 month.  I can't purchase this because Dean got a ticket back in February, I didn't find out about it until debt collectors called wanting the payment, and also being notified he had a warrant out because he couldn't tell me about the ticket 6 months ago. So, needless to say, I had to take my food order budget, and bail him out of the dog house. We should be getting some money in next week, so I will just have to wait a bit longer to purchase my food. That's okay, I suppose it could be much worse, he could be in the slammer, I suppose.

If things go as planned, I will be getting a free photo shoot done a week from today.  Another person doing the weightloss program here in the Las Vegas is a photographer and is providing free sessions to anyone who uses the program and reaches their goal! I made my appointment for a week from today, we'll see how that goes. Who's excited?