Last Saturday, at work, I noticed a tree.
It was odd shaped, two were standing awfully close, and were strong. And one near it, was all alone, and didn't look nearly as strong, it wasn't nearly as full of leaves as the ones that stood together. I thought that it kind of resembled how there is strength in numbers. And when there is one standing all alone, it is weaker.
The good thing about the weight loss program, is that there is strength in numbers, many people who I know are doing the program. Many of us share a common hang out spot, where there is consistent offers of free food, which is usually hot dogs, where there is ice cream readily available. It's a lot easier to refuse unhealthy foods. We sit on the couches, and chow down on our healthy meal replacements, and enjoy it! I also found out that two of them don't like the Mac 'N Cheese, but I do, so I am going to trade them something for their Mac 'N Cheese, it has become a three- ring-circus -pseudo-food-swap! As our little crew has been shrinking in regards to how much we weigh, we have been noticing that some of the other folks who have not done the program, their weights are dramatically increasing, it's rather kind of depressing.
I am beyond ecstatic to announce that my little team of family and friends doing the weight loss program doubled this week! Yes, that only means one more joined in, but one is better than none. Everyone give "M" a cyber wave and a welcome! I have decided to omit any real names to any one that may be mentioned on this blog in order to grant them anonymity. Although they have granted me permission to talk about her on my blog, I feel like they should stay anonymous.
And no, I did not read her the interested script that I have been pushed to call up everyone I know. She did however read through my entire blog right after she heard about the program!
It started out as small chit chat, she asked what I had been up to, I told her losing weight, and the rest is history. She was already desiring a change, and looking for something to try. I am so happy for her.
Because we are doing this together, it will be easier than if we were lone birds doing it.
Also, last Friday, (3/21/14) I was reminded of my mom throughout the day. One of our light bulbs had burnt out. I told Dean that I would go to the store and get a new one, that we didn't have the kind we needed. He searched through out light bulb station, and found a light bulb. I told him that wasn't the right one, we needed a normal one, and that one was circular one for the kitchen. He didn't believe me, so he decided to read the package, amongst him reading the package, the light bulb slid out, and crashed onto the floor, turning it into 6 million little pieces. I could have gotten mad because he didn't believe me, but instead, I heard my mom's voice saying "there's no use in crying over spilt milk" she would always say that when accidents happened when I was a kiddo. It always meant, "it's okay, it could have been worse. Things are replaceable. Anger hurts people, and sometimes you can't fix that." I didn't yell at Dean about the light, instead we laughed, cleaned it up, and got a new one (the one we needed). When I was running the errands, I decided to stop in at Kohls and look for some new clothes. The first shirt I saw when I walked in was a shirt decorated with sequence. My mom LOVED wearing sequence. Her favorite sweatshirt was decorated in multiple colors of sequence. It reminded me that she is always looking out for me. It made me feel like she is proud of me for taking back my health. That she was there, cheering me on, like she always did in mortality. Yes, I know that sounds incredibly bizarre, but it is what it is. I will take any tender mercies that surface.
On Friday, (3/28/14) while I was walking the dog, the neighbor came out to the curb to ask me a question. We always stop at their house and let their kids play with Lucky. But that day the mom came out and asked "You're losing a lot of weight, aren't you? Are you okay, or is something wrong?" She also told me that I look great! (That always feels great!) I told her that I am losing weight on purpose, and that I am perfectly healthy. She asked about the program, for a friend of hers that weighs in excess of 300 pounds. It would be great if she joins in on all the fun! On Saturday, while on our walk with Lucky, I gave the neighbor two pamphlets about the program, and answered a ton of questions, I was waiting for her to ask me if they have someone that can speak to her in Spanish. And of course, she did. I know that my health coach speaks Spanish, so I told her to call my number and that I can put her in touch with someone who speaks Spanish. I thought even when I try to acquire clients, I still don't get them. My health coach ends up with them. How much defeat is in that? An overwhelming amount.
On Sunday (3/30/14) Dean requested fish for dinner. Not our healthy plan approved fish, but deep fried, smashed in between two large pieces of bread, smothered in tarter sauce, and cheese. I felt, anger and disappointment. He spent several months working toward dropping the number on the scale, shrinking his pant sizes, and hoping to no longer be considered a diabetic. Only to immediately go back to old habits. Of course one dinner won't make him gain 45 pounds back immediately, but on Saturday I also discovered that he managed to stop at Winco and purchase his beloved "boxed crap" a wide variety variety of pasta ronis, rice a roni's, etc. Oh, and I also found wrappers that belonged to Reeses Peanut Butter Cups. It was just devastating to find out that he doesn't care about his long term health. My dad, however, has remained supportive, and suggested that I make Dean a meal replacement Brownie, and stick a candle in it, for Dean's birthday on Tuesday.
As for my weigh in today, it must be prefaced by saying that all week my scale has been nothing short of possessed. Last week, I didn't believe the 190 weigh in, I thought if I really had lost 4 pounds in one week, my clothes would be looser. So I weighed myself again, and it was 194. I weighed myself again, to get a reading of 164. I snuck a couple of other "scale checks" this week, and they ranged from 153-200. I'm not stupid, and I know that's not right. We attempted to move it to a different location to see if that would fix the demons in the thing. They just got worse. All of a sudden it started giving us a European Measurement. This morning, it appears that I found a spot in our home that allowed the scale to be consistent. I consistently got a reading for 191. I'm not disappointed (cause I really didn't believe the 190 weigh in last week) and because I bought a size 16 pair of pants last week, that are now wearable only with a belt. I do think I lost several pounds this week, but there is no telling. If I can be in the 180's next week, I will be a very happy camper.
I am a very happy camper this week for another reason though. My husband, Dean's birthday is tomorrow. Last week I went and got him a birthday present. I decided to get him new pants. Because he has lost weight, his pants have been making him look like sponge-bob square pants, gangster style. I completely guessed his pant sizes. I gave his present to him today, one pair of jeans and a pair of Dickies (hoping that they are acceptable for work, as they look like slacks), and he comfortably fits into a size 32/30... When we moved here in 2011, we were buying him 42/30. If that's not a significant non scale victory, I don't know what is. He is wearing the size he was in High School.
Monday, March 31, 2014
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Life is Tough
Lately, I have been feeling beyond stressed. I have a lot of school deadlines quickly approaching, and work deadlines also quickly approaching, and quite honestly, I don't feel like doing any of them. I want to sleep. I feel like I need to have a nervous breakdown and then I will be okay again.
I've been worried about my friend who I learned about the weight loss program from, I haven't scene him in a while, and when I have scene him, he has looked, well, worried. But today, I was able to catch up with him. We are both feeling somewhat of a burn out, while we are doing this program. We miss normal people food, but at the same time, we know that we are doing what is best for our bodies, and that is making them healthy.
I know that this doesn't really tickle anyone's fancy, but in case you are curious, we calculated how much, together, as a group of four people we have lost, since last July, the grand total is 255 pounds.
As I have mentioned before, the company is offering 40 dollars off of their variety packages for a limited time only. We have been trying to take an advantage of this killer deal, so we submitted a couple of orders this past week. Today, I found out that that limited time is ending on Monday. I decided to check out bank account to determine if we could afford one more order before this offer expires, only to discover, in pure shock, horror, and plain anger that our account had been double charged for one order. One order for 299, went through yesterday. Another payment, that was not attached to any order, went through today, for the same amount. I called the company, and they told me they I had no idea what I was talking about, while I was staring at our bank account online, plainly seeing that another 299 debit to the same company, went through. Because of this "mistake" on their part, and because I ran some errands assuming we had the money in the bank, we ended up over drafted. I was more than angry to find ourselves overdrawn, to no fault of our own.
I went to the bank, and filed a dispute of charges. We should have the money back within 3-5 business days. But because of this, we are out of the running to get another package and take an advantage the killer deal, yet again. I felt defeated, violated and disappointed. My plan to save money, was literally, stolen from us, by someone else.
But then I thought, what a blessing this can turn out to be. Instead of being confined to packages that are pre-designed, we can now, once again, create out own orders, thus deciding what we are eating, and our cost! Returning back to our favorites, I think just might be the kick start I need to get out of the "burn out" funk I currently find myself. I predict that our next order will consist mainly of mac n cheese, and brownies. Perhaps, I am just being an optimist but I think this whole issue with the bank and being overcharged happened for the better.
Today, while I was making my lean and green meal, I recognized something. I am now cooking. When I got burned last year, I couldn't go near the stove, and sometimes even the sink. I have flashbacks of the day I got burned, and sometimes, it's just too much to handle. Dean has done a majority of the cooking since my incident. I've also never really cooked chicken, I'm always worried that it won't be cooked through or something, but over the last few weeks, I have been cooking chicken, all by myself! That's a huge step forward if you ask me.
I've been worried about my friend who I learned about the weight loss program from, I haven't scene him in a while, and when I have scene him, he has looked, well, worried. But today, I was able to catch up with him. We are both feeling somewhat of a burn out, while we are doing this program. We miss normal people food, but at the same time, we know that we are doing what is best for our bodies, and that is making them healthy.
I know that this doesn't really tickle anyone's fancy, but in case you are curious, we calculated how much, together, as a group of four people we have lost, since last July, the grand total is 255 pounds.
As I have mentioned before, the company is offering 40 dollars off of their variety packages for a limited time only. We have been trying to take an advantage of this killer deal, so we submitted a couple of orders this past week. Today, I found out that that limited time is ending on Monday. I decided to check out bank account to determine if we could afford one more order before this offer expires, only to discover, in pure shock, horror, and plain anger that our account had been double charged for one order. One order for 299, went through yesterday. Another payment, that was not attached to any order, went through today, for the same amount. I called the company, and they told me they I had no idea what I was talking about, while I was staring at our bank account online, plainly seeing that another 299 debit to the same company, went through. Because of this "mistake" on their part, and because I ran some errands assuming we had the money in the bank, we ended up over drafted. I was more than angry to find ourselves overdrawn, to no fault of our own.
I went to the bank, and filed a dispute of charges. We should have the money back within 3-5 business days. But because of this, we are out of the running to get another package and take an advantage the killer deal, yet again. I felt defeated, violated and disappointed. My plan to save money, was literally, stolen from us, by someone else.
But then I thought, what a blessing this can turn out to be. Instead of being confined to packages that are pre-designed, we can now, once again, create out own orders, thus deciding what we are eating, and our cost! Returning back to our favorites, I think just might be the kick start I need to get out of the "burn out" funk I currently find myself. I predict that our next order will consist mainly of mac n cheese, and brownies. Perhaps, I am just being an optimist but I think this whole issue with the bank and being overcharged happened for the better.
Today, while I was making my lean and green meal, I recognized something. I am now cooking. When I got burned last year, I couldn't go near the stove, and sometimes even the sink. I have flashbacks of the day I got burned, and sometimes, it's just too much to handle. Dean has done a majority of the cooking since my incident. I've also never really cooked chicken, I'm always worried that it won't be cooked through or something, but over the last few weeks, I have been cooking chicken, all by myself! That's a huge step forward if you ask me.
Monday, March 24, 2014
Future-istic
I wish I could see into the future.
I wish I could know what I will look like when I get into the healthy weight. I'm not aiming for a specific size, I am just aiming not to be overweight anymore.
Let's talk about this passed week. I had decided to go off plan this past week. I decided that I would eat the "grocery store" food that we have on hand here, because we were are running more than incredibly low on our meal replacements. I wanted to save these for when we go back to school, as we were on Spring Break, and I NEED the on the go meal replacements to chow down on between classes, otherwise it would not be uncommon to go eight hours or more without eating, which is not good for anyone to do, much less for someone who is attempting to lose weight.
I discussed my plan with Dean, and he told me that I was not going to go off plan this passed week, he decided to go off plan, so that I may continue to lose weight. So, that is what we did.
Although I tried my best to stay on plan, there was a couple of days I screwed up. I didn't eat as scheduled, some days I just got to busy to remember to throw meal replacements in my car. Friday night was the worst example of this. I had planned to be gone for only a couple hours, granting me time to get home before the next feeding time, but I was having so much fun hanging out with my family, that I stayed several hours longer than I intended. I was starving by the end of the night. I did my best to drink tons of water in attempt to ignore the hunger, but I was still hungry, and feeling guilty that I was so stupid to forget food! I was even tempted to stop at a fast food chain and get a salad, but I decided to save some cash, and eat my rabbit food when I got home. Once I got home, I ate sensibly, only eating until I was full, taking extra precaution not to overly stuff my self.
Dean has decided to go off plan for a while, so he attempted to go right back to his bad habits of purchasing and consuming what I refer to as "boxed crap." Saturday night, we ran a ton of errands, including going to the market. The first thing he picked up and attempted to put in the cart was indeed "boxed crap" of course I had a look of disappointment on my face he asked skittishly "what???" I firmly told him that if he eats that, he will instantly gain five pounds back that he has lost and that he would of just wasted 600 dollars on the meal replacements. This prompted him to read the nutritional facts. There was 32% fat in each serving, and the box claims it contains four servings, and its not uncommon at all for him to eat one box in one sitting. That adds up to a grand total of 140% of the daily value of fat. He decided to put it back on the shelf. I won that battle! Whew.
Also, apparently marriage is about compromise. I told Dean that I would go to a local casino to watch the dodgers play the diamondbacks Saturday night, if he went clothing shopping for me, and allowed me to get new pants! He complained about clothes shopping, but did go.... and Guess what I got? A new pair of Pants! Size 16. I tried on multiple other clothing items, but did not like one single item, and the pants were 10 bucks off. Major score. And yes, I know they perhaps are cheaper at a thrift store, I have gone there multiple times, looking for cheap clothes, and I can say with all honesty, I have not found anything I have liked. And, I kind of think that since I am down five pant sizes I deserve new pants that look great, feel fantastic, and will last me throughout the rest of my journey. And no, we didn't end up going to the casino to watch the game after all. Two wins for me, in one day!
Also, I think I have a plan to kind of off-set the cost of new clothes when I am done with the weight loss phase. My plan is to "steal" 10 dollars per week, set it aside, and that will become my clothing allowance when it's all said and done. My estimated arrival date is sometime in August, this will add up to a couple hundred dollars to spend on a new wardrobe. Once I have my new clothes, and I am comfortably sitting in the healthy weight category, we are going to Disneyland. We haven't decided if we are going to invite others to our party or not.
Dean has been doing this same weight loss program that I have been doing, sporadically, But, we are happy to announce that he has gone from the "obese category" on the BMI chart, to teetering on the "healthy category!" In fact, he is indeed in the healthy category, but we both desire that he loses another 10 pounds or so, just for good measure, and a little wiggle room. He now weighs in at 148.2 pounds... He was 210 at his heaviest.
I know some of you are anxiously reading through all the hoopla to get to the bottom of here, and are screaming in your heads: how much weight did you lose last week?!?! Patience people. The weight loss announcement is always at the bottom of these essays. As my journey is more than just what the scale says, and of course I have to incorporate everything regarding my journey, from learning new healthy habits, to winning battles on the home front, to dropping sizes, or whatever the case may be.
The answer is as followed: The scale clocked me in at 190 this morning, thus indicating another five pounds lost last week! That means I am 11 pounds away from breaking out of the "Obese" category on the BMI chart, and that I will then only be considered overweight, and not obese. I started out in the severely obese category. I hope I can hit that category by mother's day, but since I can't see in the future, I don't know when exactly that will happen.
And of course, here are some photos to grant all you nay sayers proof!
I wish I could know what I will look like when I get into the healthy weight. I'm not aiming for a specific size, I am just aiming not to be overweight anymore.
Let's talk about this passed week. I had decided to go off plan this past week. I decided that I would eat the "grocery store" food that we have on hand here, because we were are running more than incredibly low on our meal replacements. I wanted to save these for when we go back to school, as we were on Spring Break, and I NEED the on the go meal replacements to chow down on between classes, otherwise it would not be uncommon to go eight hours or more without eating, which is not good for anyone to do, much less for someone who is attempting to lose weight.
I discussed my plan with Dean, and he told me that I was not going to go off plan this passed week, he decided to go off plan, so that I may continue to lose weight. So, that is what we did.
Although I tried my best to stay on plan, there was a couple of days I screwed up. I didn't eat as scheduled, some days I just got to busy to remember to throw meal replacements in my car. Friday night was the worst example of this. I had planned to be gone for only a couple hours, granting me time to get home before the next feeding time, but I was having so much fun hanging out with my family, that I stayed several hours longer than I intended. I was starving by the end of the night. I did my best to drink tons of water in attempt to ignore the hunger, but I was still hungry, and feeling guilty that I was so stupid to forget food! I was even tempted to stop at a fast food chain and get a salad, but I decided to save some cash, and eat my rabbit food when I got home. Once I got home, I ate sensibly, only eating until I was full, taking extra precaution not to overly stuff my self.
Dean has decided to go off plan for a while, so he attempted to go right back to his bad habits of purchasing and consuming what I refer to as "boxed crap." Saturday night, we ran a ton of errands, including going to the market. The first thing he picked up and attempted to put in the cart was indeed "boxed crap" of course I had a look of disappointment on my face he asked skittishly "what???" I firmly told him that if he eats that, he will instantly gain five pounds back that he has lost and that he would of just wasted 600 dollars on the meal replacements. This prompted him to read the nutritional facts. There was 32% fat in each serving, and the box claims it contains four servings, and its not uncommon at all for him to eat one box in one sitting. That adds up to a grand total of 140% of the daily value of fat. He decided to put it back on the shelf. I won that battle! Whew.
Also, apparently marriage is about compromise. I told Dean that I would go to a local casino to watch the dodgers play the diamondbacks Saturday night, if he went clothing shopping for me, and allowed me to get new pants! He complained about clothes shopping, but did go.... and Guess what I got? A new pair of Pants! Size 16. I tried on multiple other clothing items, but did not like one single item, and the pants were 10 bucks off. Major score. And yes, I know they perhaps are cheaper at a thrift store, I have gone there multiple times, looking for cheap clothes, and I can say with all honesty, I have not found anything I have liked. And, I kind of think that since I am down five pant sizes I deserve new pants that look great, feel fantastic, and will last me throughout the rest of my journey. And no, we didn't end up going to the casino to watch the game after all. Two wins for me, in one day!
Also, I think I have a plan to kind of off-set the cost of new clothes when I am done with the weight loss phase. My plan is to "steal" 10 dollars per week, set it aside, and that will become my clothing allowance when it's all said and done. My estimated arrival date is sometime in August, this will add up to a couple hundred dollars to spend on a new wardrobe. Once I have my new clothes, and I am comfortably sitting in the healthy weight category, we are going to Disneyland. We haven't decided if we are going to invite others to our party or not.
Dean has been doing this same weight loss program that I have been doing, sporadically, But, we are happy to announce that he has gone from the "obese category" on the BMI chart, to teetering on the "healthy category!" In fact, he is indeed in the healthy category, but we both desire that he loses another 10 pounds or so, just for good measure, and a little wiggle room. He now weighs in at 148.2 pounds... He was 210 at his heaviest.
I know some of you are anxiously reading through all the hoopla to get to the bottom of here, and are screaming in your heads: how much weight did you lose last week?!?! Patience people. The weight loss announcement is always at the bottom of these essays. As my journey is more than just what the scale says, and of course I have to incorporate everything regarding my journey, from learning new healthy habits, to winning battles on the home front, to dropping sizes, or whatever the case may be.
The answer is as followed: The scale clocked me in at 190 this morning, thus indicating another five pounds lost last week! That means I am 11 pounds away from breaking out of the "Obese" category on the BMI chart, and that I will then only be considered overweight, and not obese. I started out in the severely obese category. I hope I can hit that category by mother's day, but since I can't see in the future, I don't know when exactly that will happen.
And of course, here are some photos to grant all you nay sayers proof!
The scale.
Me! Wearing a pair of size 16 pants, and a shirt that I got a plus size store, about a year ago. One day, I'll purchase new shirts, I looked for some at Target and Kohls this passed week, but not one was up to my expectations of modesty.
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Explosion of Secrets
Okay, so here is a random-its-not-Monday update!
The URL of this blog is the secret life of a fatso, so here are some secrets for you! I have to live up to the quirky name, right?
There have been an overwhelming number of supporters who have backed me up on my journey, and to those people I continually say thank you, and that your support helps me keep going!
There have been a few a few people have been trying to sabotage me, and my efforts, to get healthy. There have been people who have called what I am doing a "stupid, silly diet" there have been people who have snuck marshmallows into my food. And there have been other's that that have
tried to sabotage me by saying things such as: "You're not beautiful by what the number on the scale says, you're beautiful by how confident you are in the body god gave you! We're all different. We come in all different shapes and sizes." And telling me that I should not lose weight. There have also been people who have said that I'm loosing weight too quickly, and that I need to stop. No, by no means were any of these people doctors. By no means am I stupid, and I am indeed doing this under the supervision of my doctor. He has been following me throughout my journey, and he was ecstatic when Dean and I made an appointment to speak with him and bring up our own obesity, and what we wanted to do about it. He was even more ecstatic when we told him what weight loss program we were going to pursue. He endorsed it by saying that is safe, effective, and that it works.
Its comforting to know that most of my friends and family are encouraging me through my transition. And it's disappointing to me to find out that some people are less than supportive. Perhaps they are jealous of my transition, or perhaps they are just not good friends. I don't know.
I chose to do this weight loss problem, to reclaim my own health, I'm not doing it for anyone else, but me. I know that obesity can lead to devastating silent killers, such as heart disease and diabetes. I watched my mother's life be stolen by diabetes. Yes, I have heard the comments: "well you weren't really related to her, since you were adopted so you don't need to worry about that." Research tells us that being overweight leads to both heart disease and diabetes, regardless of what your DNA make up is.
As a member of the LDS church, we have always been taught that our bodies are temples, and that we need to take care of our bodies. If we allow our bodies to fall prey to the obesity epidemic, and then decide not to do something about it, how is that taking care of our bodies?
I work for a great guy, who always pushes us to be better individuals. He is also a motivational speaker. In January, at our monthly meeting, he had us make a list, perhaps similar to New Year's Resolutions, and to pick JUST ONE THING to give all of our focus on. The more extravagant lists of 10 or more, never work out. But when you can focus on just one, it's a lot more easier to succeed. I choose my ONE THING this year to be weight loss. I'm not going to apologize if this upsets anyone, frankly, it's my life, my body, my decision, and if you don't like it, well, you can go jump off a bridge of skittles. Besides school, it's all I am focused on. I am loving the fact that I can shop at regular clothing stores, that I look and feel amazing, and that I am taking care of me, for once.
Today, I decided to get rid of some of my "fat clothes" today. I intended to get rid of more than what I did, but my husband removed some of what was in the pile, and hung them back up, insisting I keep some clothes. I went to our local DI store (a thrift store) and dropped off the bag of clothes I was "allowed" to donate. While I was there, I decided to shop for new clothes. I went with a set budget of 20 dollars, that sounded reasonable to me. I did find some shirts, and I tried them on. I WAS ABLE TO FIT COMFORTABLY INTO A MEDIUM SIZE SHIRT! Although, I tried all of these on, I decided to purchase non of them. I knew that would warrant Dean yelling at me when I got home, and the pain that would cause, I just didn't feel like it was worth it.
Another question that I have continually gotten is "how long will you be on your diet for?" The answer is for always and forever. Once I get to my optimum weight, I won't be purchasing the food orders anymore, but I will continue to take what I have learned in this process, follow it, and then I will be in the "maintenance phase" of this weight loss program. I suppose that the people who ask this question want to know when I will stop with the food orders, the answer to that, is I have no idea as I can't predict the future. Typical results are 10 pounds a month on the program that I am doing. And since I have about 50 more to go, I suspect at least 5 more months. I am hoping to be done with the weight loss phase, by the end of the summer. We are planning on seeing family in August, and I want to debut my new body then. :)
One of the "side effects" of this plan is increased fertility. While I know we will need to pursue fertility treatments, I kind of want to have an appointment with our fertility doctor and ask her how long we should wait until we pursue treatments after dropping a ton of weight, because I am nervous about that, and not knowing the answer is driving me crazy. And before you launch "you should do fertility treatments before losing the weight" comments... the truth is, most fertility doctor's won't perform the procedures, until you are in a healthy weight. The heavier you are, the more dangerous pregnancies are, and the likelihood that the embryos won't take also increases.
Also, remember the video I talked about during my last post, it is now published. Problem is, Facebook was the only site that would take it.
The only two "problems" that I am currently having while on the weight loss program is that, I wish I was losing the weight faster, losing the 50 pounds in a month would be fantastic (yes, I know that's not reality) but, it sound's like fun. :p... also, my second problem, is that I wish I was loosing the weight in "specific areas," guess I can't control that either. Also, I want my arm's to shrink faster than they are!
The URL of this blog is the secret life of a fatso, so here are some secrets for you! I have to live up to the quirky name, right?
There have been an overwhelming number of supporters who have backed me up on my journey, and to those people I continually say thank you, and that your support helps me keep going!
There have been a few a few people have been trying to sabotage me, and my efforts, to get healthy. There have been people who have called what I am doing a "stupid, silly diet" there have been people who have snuck marshmallows into my food. And there have been other's that that have
tried to sabotage me by saying things such as: "You're not beautiful by what the number on the scale says, you're beautiful by how confident you are in the body god gave you! We're all different. We come in all different shapes and sizes." And telling me that I should not lose weight. There have also been people who have said that I'm loosing weight too quickly, and that I need to stop. No, by no means were any of these people doctors. By no means am I stupid, and I am indeed doing this under the supervision of my doctor. He has been following me throughout my journey, and he was ecstatic when Dean and I made an appointment to speak with him and bring up our own obesity, and what we wanted to do about it. He was even more ecstatic when we told him what weight loss program we were going to pursue. He endorsed it by saying that is safe, effective, and that it works.
Its comforting to know that most of my friends and family are encouraging me through my transition. And it's disappointing to me to find out that some people are less than supportive. Perhaps they are jealous of my transition, or perhaps they are just not good friends. I don't know.
I chose to do this weight loss problem, to reclaim my own health, I'm not doing it for anyone else, but me. I know that obesity can lead to devastating silent killers, such as heart disease and diabetes. I watched my mother's life be stolen by diabetes. Yes, I have heard the comments: "well you weren't really related to her, since you were adopted so you don't need to worry about that." Research tells us that being overweight leads to both heart disease and diabetes, regardless of what your DNA make up is.
As a member of the LDS church, we have always been taught that our bodies are temples, and that we need to take care of our bodies. If we allow our bodies to fall prey to the obesity epidemic, and then decide not to do something about it, how is that taking care of our bodies?
I work for a great guy, who always pushes us to be better individuals. He is also a motivational speaker. In January, at our monthly meeting, he had us make a list, perhaps similar to New Year's Resolutions, and to pick JUST ONE THING to give all of our focus on. The more extravagant lists of 10 or more, never work out. But when you can focus on just one, it's a lot more easier to succeed. I choose my ONE THING this year to be weight loss. I'm not going to apologize if this upsets anyone, frankly, it's my life, my body, my decision, and if you don't like it, well, you can go jump off a bridge of skittles. Besides school, it's all I am focused on. I am loving the fact that I can shop at regular clothing stores, that I look and feel amazing, and that I am taking care of me, for once.
Today, I decided to get rid of some of my "fat clothes" today. I intended to get rid of more than what I did, but my husband removed some of what was in the pile, and hung them back up, insisting I keep some clothes. I went to our local DI store (a thrift store) and dropped off the bag of clothes I was "allowed" to donate. While I was there, I decided to shop for new clothes. I went with a set budget of 20 dollars, that sounded reasonable to me. I did find some shirts, and I tried them on. I WAS ABLE TO FIT COMFORTABLY INTO A MEDIUM SIZE SHIRT! Although, I tried all of these on, I decided to purchase non of them. I knew that would warrant Dean yelling at me when I got home, and the pain that would cause, I just didn't feel like it was worth it.
Another question that I have continually gotten is "how long will you be on your diet for?" The answer is for always and forever. Once I get to my optimum weight, I won't be purchasing the food orders anymore, but I will continue to take what I have learned in this process, follow it, and then I will be in the "maintenance phase" of this weight loss program. I suppose that the people who ask this question want to know when I will stop with the food orders, the answer to that, is I have no idea as I can't predict the future. Typical results are 10 pounds a month on the program that I am doing. And since I have about 50 more to go, I suspect at least 5 more months. I am hoping to be done with the weight loss phase, by the end of the summer. We are planning on seeing family in August, and I want to debut my new body then. :)
One of the "side effects" of this plan is increased fertility. While I know we will need to pursue fertility treatments, I kind of want to have an appointment with our fertility doctor and ask her how long we should wait until we pursue treatments after dropping a ton of weight, because I am nervous about that, and not knowing the answer is driving me crazy. And before you launch "you should do fertility treatments before losing the weight" comments... the truth is, most fertility doctor's won't perform the procedures, until you are in a healthy weight. The heavier you are, the more dangerous pregnancies are, and the likelihood that the embryos won't take also increases.
Also, remember the video I talked about during my last post, it is now published. Problem is, Facebook was the only site that would take it.
The only two "problems" that I am currently having while on the weight loss program is that, I wish I was losing the weight faster, losing the 50 pounds in a month would be fantastic (yes, I know that's not reality) but, it sound's like fun. :p... also, my second problem, is that I wish I was loosing the weight in "specific areas," guess I can't control that either. Also, I want my arm's to shrink faster than they are!
Friday, March 14, 2014
Healthy Chef T!
Many people have asked why this program is preferred or works better than more extreme weight loss adventures (gastric bypass surgeries, lap band, etc.) and the answer is simple:
None of those work without some serious behavior modification. You must control your appetite. You must control how many calories you consume. You must eat the proper food, in order to make sure you are not starving your body of essential nutrients. It is not uncommon for people that have had those procedures to gain the weight back, or to become vitamin deficient. Luckily, all of the meal replacements are fortified with Vitamins and Minerals.
This program focuses on your own behavior modification. You eat less. You learn to look at labels and ask questions before you purchase food.
Today (this post began its journey of being created on Thursday 3/13/13) we ran out of food. I had no idea what to make for dinner. There was a recipe I had been wanting to try that is "program approved" the problem is I knew that these ingredients were only available at a specific store.
So I went there, I did my usual "shop around the parameter" business. Of course stopping at the fish station in search for halibut, of course to no avail. I decided to go with the usual tilapia. Not without noticing a variety of "stuffed" foods. Clams, scallops, and red meets. I asked the guy (who was incredibly helpful and friendly he even searched the back room for some halibut for me) what was inside these things. He mentioned stuffing, and mayonnaise. I decided right then not to get these items. For one, I loathe stuffing (just typing about it makes me want to gag) and number two, there was mayonnaise in it. I choose healthier options, I am in control of what I feed my body.
Well, my meandering around the store continued. I picked up a variety of vegetables, and then found myself in the condiment aisle. I have been on the hunt for a certain type of ranch since starting this program. I ended up looking at a variety of brands. And by looking, I mean reading the ingredients list, studying the sugars, fibers, fats calories, etc. I finally found the perfect one! Zero Calories, zero sugars! When compared to the "normal" ranch... when I studied the nutritional value label on that...I stood shocked. 140 calories... 120 from fat.... to give you perspective of how that fits into my life currently, the 140 calories is WAY more than I eat in any given meal, except for my lean and green meal, and that is about 300 calories. My meal replacements max out at a total of 110 calories, with very little fat.
This wasn't the first time, or the last time, that I carefully studied the labels before deciding a purchase. I did it two weeks ago at Food For Less, last week at Winco, and this new behavior continued as I made my rounds at the market today. I was able to find my much needed ingredient for something that would very soon become my newest favorite meal. Ever. An orange marmalade that was also calorie, fat, and sugar free! Super delightful!
Also, some of you consistently ask "what do you eat while "dieting" " I have taken the liberty to become an amateur food photographer. Below you will find examples of various foods that I consume while on the program.
Pancakes. Conveniently arranged in the Shape of Mickey Mouse.
Honey Mustard Pretzel Sticks
Spicy Garlic Lime Shrimp with zucchini.
Smore's Meal replacement bar. Completely GOOD!
Steak and vegetables (serving size is half of this slab of meet, I just really liked the score marks on this)
This is about our average weekly purchase of grocery store food.
It all fits into the child's seat, and doesn't cost much! Also, those
two jars were the little gems I found yesterday. The jury is still out
weather or not the ranch is good or not.
Yes, I know that this one does not announce a weight loss amount for this week... You have to wait until Monday for that.... and I'm hoping to put together something special that will announce that. So, you must wait. :)
None of those work without some serious behavior modification. You must control your appetite. You must control how many calories you consume. You must eat the proper food, in order to make sure you are not starving your body of essential nutrients. It is not uncommon for people that have had those procedures to gain the weight back, or to become vitamin deficient. Luckily, all of the meal replacements are fortified with Vitamins and Minerals.
This program focuses on your own behavior modification. You eat less. You learn to look at labels and ask questions before you purchase food.
Today (this post began its journey of being created on Thursday 3/13/13) we ran out of food. I had no idea what to make for dinner. There was a recipe I had been wanting to try that is "program approved" the problem is I knew that these ingredients were only available at a specific store.
So I went there, I did my usual "shop around the parameter" business. Of course stopping at the fish station in search for halibut, of course to no avail. I decided to go with the usual tilapia. Not without noticing a variety of "stuffed" foods. Clams, scallops, and red meets. I asked the guy (who was incredibly helpful and friendly he even searched the back room for some halibut for me) what was inside these things. He mentioned stuffing, and mayonnaise. I decided right then not to get these items. For one, I loathe stuffing (just typing about it makes me want to gag) and number two, there was mayonnaise in it. I choose healthier options, I am in control of what I feed my body.
Well, my meandering around the store continued. I picked up a variety of vegetables, and then found myself in the condiment aisle. I have been on the hunt for a certain type of ranch since starting this program. I ended up looking at a variety of brands. And by looking, I mean reading the ingredients list, studying the sugars, fibers, fats calories, etc. I finally found the perfect one! Zero Calories, zero sugars! When compared to the "normal" ranch... when I studied the nutritional value label on that...I stood shocked. 140 calories... 120 from fat.... to give you perspective of how that fits into my life currently, the 140 calories is WAY more than I eat in any given meal, except for my lean and green meal, and that is about 300 calories. My meal replacements max out at a total of 110 calories, with very little fat.
This wasn't the first time, or the last time, that I carefully studied the labels before deciding a purchase. I did it two weeks ago at Food For Less, last week at Winco, and this new behavior continued as I made my rounds at the market today. I was able to find my much needed ingredient for something that would very soon become my newest favorite meal. Ever. An orange marmalade that was also calorie, fat, and sugar free! Super delightful!
Also, some of you consistently ask "what do you eat while "dieting" " I have taken the liberty to become an amateur food photographer. Below you will find examples of various foods that I consume while on the program.
A Brownie. Its really good.
This is a bowl of cold cereal. Perfectly portioned out.
conveniently in a bowl that reads:
"The Best to You Each Morning"
I find that there is an incredible amount of truth to this tag line. I really am feeding my body the best, each day, all day long.
This is Lasagna. The "noodles" are strips of zucchini.
A meal replacement. Not sure which one.
This has become my all time favorite. I could eat this all day, every day.
This is orange chicken with a salad. The difference between this and a fast food joint's version is: this is not deep fried. This has virtually no calories. This is better for you, and tastes way better.
This was one of my "invention" gone bad.
This is an orange shake, I attempted to turn into an orange cream popsicle. It became a frozen donut.
This is an orange shake, I attempted to turn into an orange cream popsicle. It became a frozen donut.
Peanut Butter Ice Cream.
Pancakes. Conveniently arranged in the Shape of Mickey Mouse.
Honey Mustard Pretzel Sticks
Spicy Garlic Lime Shrimp with zucchini.
Smore's Meal replacement bar. Completely GOOD!
Steak and vegetables (serving size is half of this slab of meet, I just really liked the score marks on this)
This is about our average weekly purchase of grocery store food.
It all fits into the child's seat, and doesn't cost much! Also, those
two jars were the little gems I found yesterday. The jury is still out
weather or not the ranch is good or not.
Yes, I know that this one does not announce a weight loss amount for this week... You have to wait until Monday for that.... and I'm hoping to put together something special that will announce that. So, you must wait. :)
Monday, March 10, 2014
Sabatoge Week
Well, its minus Monday.... That means its of course time to report my success, or my failures to my friends and family.
As you can guess from the title of this blog, strange things happened last week.
My weight last Monday indicated that I was under 200 pounds... That very same day the same scale clocked me in at 204..... Then the scale broke. I had to get a new one. I had suspected that it was going on the fritz for plenty of time now. I have no idea which digits were actually correct.
I was unsure of the new scale would be calibrated the same as the old one, although I did purchase the same brand.
I was also confronted with another round of sickness. I have been sicker than a truck load of garbage monkeys riding on a dump truck.... perhaps my body went in to "lets attempt to kill this horrendous virus mode instead of fat burn mode?"
I also know that I did not drink as much water and eat all of the meal replacements I should of..... I have been confronted with high grade fevers, breathing problems, and a throat that feels like I had fourteen millions shards of glass hanging out in it. When you feel like I did, you are in a drunken stupor of all sorts of medications and don't feel like eating. I figured I would work on getting enough rest, and get back into my fat-burning-lean-mean-body-machine later.
Also, yesterday Dean made me my traditional brownie for a dessert with "an extra dose of love..."
this translates into, he put a few miniature marshmallows into the brownie..... by no means is this approved on the program. No means at all.
Well, anyway. I did my official weigh in today, the new scale clocked me in at 199. Good news, I am still under 200, but it also leaves questions of weather or not the new scale is right, or the old one. I also had to tightened my belt (and bra) this week, so Dean and I have decided that I have indeed lost weight. That I went from 204 to 199. This would grant me a 5 pound weight loss.
Perhaps it's a mind game to keep me positive in my transition, or perhaps its the reality. Who really knows. I will count my weigh in for today as the reference point for future weigh ins.
People ask me what I am looking forward to the most when I am done losing weight, and basically, it is two fold. Shocking my family and friends when we get to go home for a vacation or something, and going to Disneyland. When I get to my optimum weight, for a reward, we are going to Disneyland!!! I really wanted to put a tracker thing on the side of my blog that reads "so many pounds until Disneyland" but I couldn't figure out how. If you know how, please advise!
On the health coaching front. I have decided that I am going to purchase a really cool cup, and business cards that basically advertise for me. I can have the cup with me when I am in my classes, and then people will ask what it means, I can explain it to them, and give them a business card. I have already made up the business cards (I just add my co-branded info to a template of this program) I just have to wait until pay day to purchase them. But, I am ecstatic to announce that my only client thus far (Dean) is 7 pounds away from reaching his optimal weight! He has gone from being in the "Obese" category to the "healthy weight" category according to the BMI chart we use, set forth my the diet program, not the internet.
Here's to a healthier, happier, weight-losing week! Let's hope anyway!
As you can guess from the title of this blog, strange things happened last week.
My weight last Monday indicated that I was under 200 pounds... That very same day the same scale clocked me in at 204..... Then the scale broke. I had to get a new one. I had suspected that it was going on the fritz for plenty of time now. I have no idea which digits were actually correct.
I was unsure of the new scale would be calibrated the same as the old one, although I did purchase the same brand.
I was also confronted with another round of sickness. I have been sicker than a truck load of garbage monkeys riding on a dump truck.... perhaps my body went in to "lets attempt to kill this horrendous virus mode instead of fat burn mode?"
I also know that I did not drink as much water and eat all of the meal replacements I should of..... I have been confronted with high grade fevers, breathing problems, and a throat that feels like I had fourteen millions shards of glass hanging out in it. When you feel like I did, you are in a drunken stupor of all sorts of medications and don't feel like eating. I figured I would work on getting enough rest, and get back into my fat-burning-lean-mean-body-machine later.
Also, yesterday Dean made me my traditional brownie for a dessert with "an extra dose of love..."
this translates into, he put a few miniature marshmallows into the brownie..... by no means is this approved on the program. No means at all.
Well, anyway. I did my official weigh in today, the new scale clocked me in at 199. Good news, I am still under 200, but it also leaves questions of weather or not the new scale is right, or the old one. I also had to tightened my belt (and bra) this week, so Dean and I have decided that I have indeed lost weight. That I went from 204 to 199. This would grant me a 5 pound weight loss.
Perhaps it's a mind game to keep me positive in my transition, or perhaps its the reality. Who really knows. I will count my weigh in for today as the reference point for future weigh ins.
People ask me what I am looking forward to the most when I am done losing weight, and basically, it is two fold. Shocking my family and friends when we get to go home for a vacation or something, and going to Disneyland. When I get to my optimum weight, for a reward, we are going to Disneyland!!! I really wanted to put a tracker thing on the side of my blog that reads "so many pounds until Disneyland" but I couldn't figure out how. If you know how, please advise!
On the health coaching front. I have decided that I am going to purchase a really cool cup, and business cards that basically advertise for me. I can have the cup with me when I am in my classes, and then people will ask what it means, I can explain it to them, and give them a business card. I have already made up the business cards (I just add my co-branded info to a template of this program) I just have to wait until pay day to purchase them. But, I am ecstatic to announce that my only client thus far (Dean) is 7 pounds away from reaching his optimal weight! He has gone from being in the "Obese" category to the "healthy weight" category according to the BMI chart we use, set forth my the diet program, not the internet.
Here's to a healthier, happier, weight-losing week! Let's hope anyway!
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
Identity Crises
Well, today is Wednesday, it is the day that Dean gets home from school and work, very late (10pm), that leaves me plenty of time to hang out by myself, and of course get into trouble.
Today, I decided to go to Target, I needed to replace our scale...I broke it.... and before all the fat jokes are launched at me, I stepped on it wrong, causing it to rise to a 45 degree angle, and then slam down again. I have done that many, many of times, I think it just got tired of all the abuse from me. :) I tried changing the batteries, but no luck the old one doesn't do anything. I just hope the new one is as friendly, and calibrated the same as the old one.
Also at Target, I decided to do something very, very, very dangerous..... try on clothes.
I decided to head for the racks of Jeans.... I tried on a few different sizes ... I am ecstatic to report that I was able to comfortably fit into a size 16 misses.... that is a far cry from the previous size of 24 wide petite. I debated for quite some time about weather or not to purchase these... I had them in my cart while I shopped for a scale, powerade zeros, and just general browsing.... I decided to put these pants back for several reasons. Although they fit comfortably, they made me feel like I was having some sort of hot flash, I think it was just the material. I also found myself questioning weather I really can and should be shopping at a normal size clothing shop, or if I needed to continue to shop at the Plus Size Shop. I also elected to put them back because I knew that my husband would adamantly complain about the waste of his money. Some battles, just aren't worth fighting, so I put them back on the shelf... Also, my great friend who is my fashion guru, suddenly moved to a different state, so now I don't have anyone to tell me "that looks great T, we're definitely getting it!" Or "Nope, T, that is a definitely not!" So I am super gun shy about purchasing clothes. I have tried to call him, to set up a shopping date whenever we are in California, but currently the method of contacting him, is off on his end. :(.
I have decided that I will just continue to utilized a belt, and get new pants, later, perhaps in a couple of months.
I figured that there are from skeptics out there, who are doubting my weight loss and thus transformation, so I thought, what the heck, here is a photo for you. Size 16 pants, and Dean's polo.
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Today, I decided to go to Target, I needed to replace our scale...I broke it.... and before all the fat jokes are launched at me, I stepped on it wrong, causing it to rise to a 45 degree angle, and then slam down again. I have done that many, many of times, I think it just got tired of all the abuse from me. :) I tried changing the batteries, but no luck the old one doesn't do anything. I just hope the new one is as friendly, and calibrated the same as the old one.
Also at Target, I decided to do something very, very, very dangerous..... try on clothes.
I decided to head for the racks of Jeans.... I tried on a few different sizes ... I am ecstatic to report that I was able to comfortably fit into a size 16 misses.... that is a far cry from the previous size of 24 wide petite. I debated for quite some time about weather or not to purchase these... I had them in my cart while I shopped for a scale, powerade zeros, and just general browsing.... I decided to put these pants back for several reasons. Although they fit comfortably, they made me feel like I was having some sort of hot flash, I think it was just the material. I also found myself questioning weather I really can and should be shopping at a normal size clothing shop, or if I needed to continue to shop at the Plus Size Shop. I also elected to put them back because I knew that my husband would adamantly complain about the waste of his money. Some battles, just aren't worth fighting, so I put them back on the shelf... Also, my great friend who is my fashion guru, suddenly moved to a different state, so now I don't have anyone to tell me "that looks great T, we're definitely getting it!" Or "Nope, T, that is a definitely not!" So I am super gun shy about purchasing clothes. I have tried to call him, to set up a shopping date whenever we are in California, but currently the method of contacting him, is off on his end. :(.
I have decided that I will just continue to utilized a belt, and get new pants, later, perhaps in a couple of months.
I figured that there are from skeptics out there, who are doubting my weight loss and thus transformation, so I thought, what the heck, here is a photo for you. Size 16 pants, and Dean's polo.
Monday, March 3, 2014
Tooting My Own Horn
Well, I'm not one to toot my own horn, but this is my journey back to health, and I figured I can if I want.
You know how yesterday I disappointingly said I was sure I was not going to reach my goal to be under 200 by my official weigh in day?
Today, I did my official weigh in day... I present to you the results...
YES! THAT DOES MEAN I MET MY SHORT TERM GOAL TO BE BELOW 200 BY TODAY!!!!!!
GRAND TOTAL OF WEIGHT LOST LAST WEEK, 9 POUNDS.
You know how yesterday I disappointingly said I was sure I was not going to reach my goal to be under 200 by my official weigh in day?
Today, I did my official weigh in day... I present to you the results...
YES! THAT DOES MEAN I MET MY SHORT TERM GOAL TO BE BELOW 200 BY TODAY!!!!!!
GRAND TOTAL OF WEIGHT LOST LAST WEEK, 9 POUNDS.
Sunday, March 2, 2014
Buy Now, Pay Later...
So, yesterday, while I was driving to work... my truck broke down (da ja vue, anyone?!)
I was able to make it to work, but promptly took it to the closest car shop that I could find.
I looked around in my truck, grabbed a meal replacement, a bottle of water. And marched inside.
I spoke to the service dude, who perhaps was the kindest, most amusing service person I have ever encountered. I told him what had happen to the car, he said okay, have a seat and they will examine it.
A few minutes later the came back. I would need a new serpentine belt (which I knew cause I saw that the entire thing had come off), a new radiator, a new pull Tilley, and they would also learn that we would need a new water pump.
Great. No money. Large car repair bill. Total the repairs came out to a large sum of 1300 dollars.
Dean had just purchase a food order for two people (that would mean one for him, one for me)... I thought maybe we could cancel his order as it hadn't been shipped out yet. I tried, but no luck. Then my health coach called the health coach line on a conference call with me attached, and they were able to cancel it. That's good. The bad, it could take up to 14 days to get the money reversed back into our account. Not good, but better then nothing.
Car still broken. Still no money. Dean was able to apply and qualify for a credit card at the shop. Total lifesaver. We used that to pay for the repairs, and we will be able to purchase another order in the coming weeks, once we get our money back from this order. We will be able to pay off the bill as well, since my hours are picking up back at work, I just have to trust and believe that we will be okay.
Bad news: the ordered had been cancelled, even though it turns out that we didn't need to do that after all, so we missed out on a super deal. The amazing sale ends today!
Okay, now lets get to the weight loss part of this journey, that's what this blog is for, right!
So, I was stranded, starving, and bored. Wonderful combination. Not. (dejuvue again. This time, there was no fast food places around, other then the occasional mini mart located at the gas station)
This service man was super nice, and he knew that I was stranded and that a look of utter despair on my face. Turns out that this company was having a BBQ for all of the workers, and he invited me to partake! I respectively denied, telling him that I am good, I have a meal replacement with me, and I had lost some weight on the program, and I don't want to screw it up! He laughed and He said: "Okay, well I am going to go add to my weight and eat a hamburger!" He must've been over 300 pounds by the way.
When I found a chair in the lobby, I noticed two vending machines, one full of snacks, one full of sodas.
I thought... It's amazing how we as a people often by things that are quick, easy, convenient, so much sugar, so much taste, so much of just a temporary full filling, so much disease and poison, so much weight to add to the body. I thought how that "easy" treat will add pounds and possibly disease into life. I continued to think: I am okay, I am going to sit here, drink my water, and eat my meal replacement!" My meal replacements represent a return to health. No poison, and weight to lift off of my body!
I thought about choices, and what they represented. One represented unhealthy habits. One represented healthy habits. I choose healthy habits. I AM WINNING!
Really, Really, Really Bad Choices PERFECT CHOICE!
As for the weight loss thing, I am disappointed to announce that I did not meet my goal to be under 200 pounds. This is okay, as I had an incredibly stressful week, sort of went off plan by not eating enough, and all of these things can effect the weight loss program. But, I did loose another four pounds. I also notice the size of skirt I wore to church today, size 18.... I was in a tight 24WP, so I will chalk it up to a miniature win.
These are two photos of me, taken today.
I was able to make it to work, but promptly took it to the closest car shop that I could find.
I looked around in my truck, grabbed a meal replacement, a bottle of water. And marched inside.
I spoke to the service dude, who perhaps was the kindest, most amusing service person I have ever encountered. I told him what had happen to the car, he said okay, have a seat and they will examine it.
A few minutes later the came back. I would need a new serpentine belt (which I knew cause I saw that the entire thing had come off), a new radiator, a new pull Tilley, and they would also learn that we would need a new water pump.
Great. No money. Large car repair bill. Total the repairs came out to a large sum of 1300 dollars.
Dean had just purchase a food order for two people (that would mean one for him, one for me)... I thought maybe we could cancel his order as it hadn't been shipped out yet. I tried, but no luck. Then my health coach called the health coach line on a conference call with me attached, and they were able to cancel it. That's good. The bad, it could take up to 14 days to get the money reversed back into our account. Not good, but better then nothing.
Car still broken. Still no money. Dean was able to apply and qualify for a credit card at the shop. Total lifesaver. We used that to pay for the repairs, and we will be able to purchase another order in the coming weeks, once we get our money back from this order. We will be able to pay off the bill as well, since my hours are picking up back at work, I just have to trust and believe that we will be okay.
Bad news: the ordered had been cancelled, even though it turns out that we didn't need to do that after all, so we missed out on a super deal. The amazing sale ends today!
Okay, now lets get to the weight loss part of this journey, that's what this blog is for, right!
So, I was stranded, starving, and bored. Wonderful combination. Not. (dejuvue again. This time, there was no fast food places around, other then the occasional mini mart located at the gas station)
This service man was super nice, and he knew that I was stranded and that a look of utter despair on my face. Turns out that this company was having a BBQ for all of the workers, and he invited me to partake! I respectively denied, telling him that I am good, I have a meal replacement with me, and I had lost some weight on the program, and I don't want to screw it up! He laughed and He said: "Okay, well I am going to go add to my weight and eat a hamburger!" He must've been over 300 pounds by the way.
When I found a chair in the lobby, I noticed two vending machines, one full of snacks, one full of sodas.
I thought... It's amazing how we as a people often by things that are quick, easy, convenient, so much sugar, so much taste, so much of just a temporary full filling, so much disease and poison, so much weight to add to the body. I thought how that "easy" treat will add pounds and possibly disease into life. I continued to think: I am okay, I am going to sit here, drink my water, and eat my meal replacement!" My meal replacements represent a return to health. No poison, and weight to lift off of my body!
I thought about choices, and what they represented. One represented unhealthy habits. One represented healthy habits. I choose healthy habits. I AM WINNING!
Really, Really, Really Bad Choices PERFECT CHOICE!
As for the weight loss thing, I am disappointed to announce that I did not meet my goal to be under 200 pounds. This is okay, as I had an incredibly stressful week, sort of went off plan by not eating enough, and all of these things can effect the weight loss program. But, I did loose another four pounds. I also notice the size of skirt I wore to church today, size 18.... I was in a tight 24WP, so I will chalk it up to a miniature win.
These are two photos of me, taken today.
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