Well... One week has come and gone... I stayed true to the Medifast plan until last night where I ate some corn that Dean had attempted to cook my way, and I needed to rescue him (he didn't ask for directions, and just started trying to figure it out on his own....) I tasted it so that I could make the nessesary adjustments, and cook his dinner. Corn isn't allowed on the MediFast diet because it is too high in sugar and Carbs.
The previous weekend we went to an arts and crafts festival where we purchased some bread, but I immediately threw it all in the freezer. I figure that its okay to have temptation in the house, as long as I can't see it. LOL... Speaking of temptation, Dean and I went to the market this weekend to get Halibut, it was on a killer deal, and its the only sea food that I find palatable. Of course Dean checked out the clearance section, where he found Caramel Carbury eggs... We got a few packages, with the reasoning that this will most likely be the last year that you can get them in the US.... I didn't want to eat them, so I again, shoved them in the fridge. I'd like to, but my scale says that I really shouldn't.
This morning, I went to pack my day's worth of food.... and my heart shattered when I discovered that I was completely out of MediFast on the go bars. Apparently I had empty boxes just chilling on my "diet food shelves." I still have minimal amount of soups and shakes but those are not very conducive for my needs of eating a quick meal in between classes. Due to the rise in prices, and us saving up for very large purchases, we are not capable of purchasing any more MediFast foods, which we knew when we placed our last order. An end of era has arrived. I must figure out how to lose weight, and maintain weight with out the aid of pre-packaged meals.
I often wonder if I would be more serious about maintaining my weight if I had lost it the hard way. Meaning, hours of blood, sweat, and tears spent at the gym. I wonder if I lost the weight the easy way, and am now paying the price for it. I'm stressing out about maintaining.
Oh, I forgot to mention last post that when I went to see my physciain for an eye problem, he stated that he was concerend with my weight.... I looked too skinny. Can't win. Can't lose. He has always been concerned with adverse side effects raising from losing too much. I also forgot to mention last week that when I was hanging out with my new friends here, it was the happiest I have felt since moving here, and perhaps in my entire adult life. That begs the question: does consuming food cause happiness, or does the company of good friends?
This Wednesday night Dean and I are planning on going to the final dinner at the culinary school for date night. I hope this doesn't effect the scale too badly. Maybe I shall go for a swim that day.
I was hoping to shake hands with the 100 pound weight loss mark once again today, but that didn't happen. The scale revealed 148. Just three pounds shy of reclaiming the 100 pounds gone, and 10 pounds total lost last week. I was greatly disappointed, but 10 pounds is double what they say to expect the first week. I think in order to help me with all of this nonsense of losing three more pounds and maintaining, I am going to pack a lunchbox of fresh fruits and vegetables, and protein to be consumed throughout the day.
Who knew all things regarding weight loss could be so stressful?!
Monday, April 20, 2015
Monday, April 13, 2015
Didn't Care.
This will be short and sweet since I have to go to class very soon.
Many moons ago, I went back on Medifast, for a couple of days. It was excruciatingly hard to go back on it when I had been enjoying real food for such a long time, I realized how hard it is to actually follow the directions. Then I launched myself right back off. I didn't care. The culinary school had one of their lunches that I had wanted to go to. It was bacon themed, completed with bacon brownies. I continued to not go back on Medifast for a bit, and I evened out at about 155, with a standard deviation of about 3 pounds (depending on day, date, what I recently ate, etc). I can feel the extra poundage on me, and I don't like it.Not one bit. It's rather disappointing.
During this time, I ate out with my friends a lot. For the first time in our entire duration of living here, I feel like I have made some really good friends. I felt loved and included. I was actually invited to a birthday dinner for one of them, and I went. It was Greek food (not all that bad for you, but still high in calories, I am sure). I have never been invited out with people here (other then Mitchell... I need to hire a private investigator to track down his butt... The look on his face when I see him again is something I truly long for) here in Vegas, and I didn't want to not be invited again, so I went with them, and had a marvelous time! This same group of friends is avid gym goers and hikers, we are planning the next hike, so I think just being around them will aid in me living a healthy lifestyle.
I ate multiple lunches at the culinary school, the last one I attended was last week, and the ran out of room in the dining room, so I got to sit at the "VIP" table in the kitchen, and was able to watch these students cook my food.... Ironically becasue I knew them all. I was in their culinary class last semester. But it was incredibly fun. The experience outweighed the regret, back then. Now, it is the opposite.
My shenanigans of not eating very well continued.... I even made Pop Tart donuts for crying out loud (with the intention of giving them to someone else, but I ate them instead)... which means I have to go and re-make them for the intended recipient. I think I take after my mom somewhat... See something cool/ taste something yummy and then spend hours and sometimes days re-creating it. I think I really do.
Yesterday, I decided to go back on Medifast for the final time, hopefully ever. Yesterday morning I weighed 158, today 154, so I am pleased... 10 more to go... That seems like such a huge number... Remember when I said 90 more to go? LOL. It's all perspective I guess.
I'll check back in next week! Thanks for all the support!
Many moons ago, I went back on Medifast, for a couple of days. It was excruciatingly hard to go back on it when I had been enjoying real food for such a long time, I realized how hard it is to actually follow the directions. Then I launched myself right back off. I didn't care. The culinary school had one of their lunches that I had wanted to go to. It was bacon themed, completed with bacon brownies. I continued to not go back on Medifast for a bit, and I evened out at about 155, with a standard deviation of about 3 pounds (depending on day, date, what I recently ate, etc). I can feel the extra poundage on me, and I don't like it.Not one bit. It's rather disappointing.
During this time, I ate out with my friends a lot. For the first time in our entire duration of living here, I feel like I have made some really good friends. I felt loved and included. I was actually invited to a birthday dinner for one of them, and I went. It was Greek food (not all that bad for you, but still high in calories, I am sure). I have never been invited out with people here (other then Mitchell... I need to hire a private investigator to track down his butt... The look on his face when I see him again is something I truly long for) here in Vegas, and I didn't want to not be invited again, so I went with them, and had a marvelous time! This same group of friends is avid gym goers and hikers, we are planning the next hike, so I think just being around them will aid in me living a healthy lifestyle.
I ate multiple lunches at the culinary school, the last one I attended was last week, and the ran out of room in the dining room, so I got to sit at the "VIP" table in the kitchen, and was able to watch these students cook my food.... Ironically becasue I knew them all. I was in their culinary class last semester. But it was incredibly fun. The experience outweighed the regret, back then. Now, it is the opposite.
My shenanigans of not eating very well continued.... I even made Pop Tart donuts for crying out loud (with the intention of giving them to someone else, but I ate them instead)... which means I have to go and re-make them for the intended recipient. I think I take after my mom somewhat... See something cool/ taste something yummy and then spend hours and sometimes days re-creating it. I think I really do.
Yesterday, I decided to go back on Medifast for the final time, hopefully ever. Yesterday morning I weighed 158, today 154, so I am pleased... 10 more to go... That seems like such a huge number... Remember when I said 90 more to go? LOL. It's all perspective I guess.
I'll check back in next week! Thanks for all the support!
Monday, March 9, 2015
The Revenge of the Fat
I can't count how many times I have been asked "Are you maintaining your weight?" To that question, I say "Yeah, sure." When in reality, that is partial truth. The holidays came and went, I already talked about the holiday pounds though. Then, I found myself swimming in hormonal treatments in preparation for fertility treatment, all of those medications I had to inject myself with, or ingest listed weight gain as a side effect. Lovely, right?
The treatment came and gone, and I weighed myself when we got word that it failed (I didn't weigh myself during the shots) and I saw the numbers 154 appear... Crap.... According to the government, that means that I was now, once again, overweight. I decided not to care for a while. For nearly 3 months I tried not to care, but my clothes were fitting tighter and tighter, and I was forced to care. I hid the scale, but I could literally feel the extra poundage on me, I felt like a marshmallow, or like I had been wrapped in bubble wrap (which might not be a bad idea for me, but ya know, not totally plausible)
Dean's work is having a weight loss competition (the winner wins 1,000 bucks... that's a lot for us puny little folks!) So he decided to order another order of Medifast, in order to (attempt) to win the competition. I had been wanting to go back on MediFast, as I still had a good month of food left over from Round 1 of losing the weight. Since he decided to go back on plan, I decided to join him. I have now completed the first week back on plan!
Last Monday when I weighed myself, the numbers 154 appeared again, so I guess that does technically mean that I did maintain those holiday-mixed with hormones- pounds. But I didn't want to. I want to maintain my 100 pound weight loss. Yes, yes I do. So, I rejoined the medifast program, and this will be my last month ever on the program (there prices skyrocketed as of March 1, and they sent us food that expired within 2 weeks of our order, I am so not happy with them right now). Today, I weighed in at 147. I lost a measly 7 pounds last week, but I will take it. I want to hit 143 again, and that shouldn't be too far off. Once I hit that weight, I will go back to eating normal people food, minus all the sugar, greasy, carby crap that I ate while while mourning our attempt at parenthood. I also plan on revisiting my old friend, the swimming pool in the gym at UNLV. I paid for it with part of my tuition, might as well use it, right? I also plan on staying out of the candy bowl, and away from the ice cream machine at the institute. :)
Dean also lost 7 pounds last week, so we are the tortoise and the hare, slowing getting back down to a healthy weight, for each of us. I think it will only take a couple of more weeks for me to get back down to my "target weight" of 143, and then I will be in transition all over again, in which I will continue to eat the medifast foods that I currently have, since they are super easy to take with me to school, but I will once again re-add all fruits and vegetables. Having the on-the-go-medifast stuff makes life so much cheaper and healthier when I am at school 12 hours a day. I can eat those instead of dining at the food court, food out is very expensive. I got a salad last Friday for my lean and green meal from a place on campus, and they have 5 dollar specials each day, but there special that day had Parmesan cheese with it (and you can't substitute items on the specials) so I literally paid 2 bucks extra for my salad in order to avoid the Parmesan cheese! LOL.. Yes, I have problems. I know it.
Yes, you can say that a 10 pound weight gain back isn't all that bad, but when you put it into perspective that means that I gained 10% back, and I REALLY don't want those pounds. Nope. Nope. Nope. I have scene many people lose weight, just to add it back again, and I don't want to be in those statistics. I really don't.
Oh, and I do think that I have somewhat of an issue with gluten, since the second I started eating bread again my bile reflux made sure to let me know that it exists.... So, if anyone would be willing to share tricks or recipes of how to live gluten free, I'd welcome them! I'll check back in next week!
The treatment came and gone, and I weighed myself when we got word that it failed (I didn't weigh myself during the shots) and I saw the numbers 154 appear... Crap.... According to the government, that means that I was now, once again, overweight. I decided not to care for a while. For nearly 3 months I tried not to care, but my clothes were fitting tighter and tighter, and I was forced to care. I hid the scale, but I could literally feel the extra poundage on me, I felt like a marshmallow, or like I had been wrapped in bubble wrap (which might not be a bad idea for me, but ya know, not totally plausible)
Dean's work is having a weight loss competition (the winner wins 1,000 bucks... that's a lot for us puny little folks!) So he decided to order another order of Medifast, in order to (attempt) to win the competition. I had been wanting to go back on MediFast, as I still had a good month of food left over from Round 1 of losing the weight. Since he decided to go back on plan, I decided to join him. I have now completed the first week back on plan!
Last Monday when I weighed myself, the numbers 154 appeared again, so I guess that does technically mean that I did maintain those holiday-mixed with hormones- pounds. But I didn't want to. I want to maintain my 100 pound weight loss. Yes, yes I do. So, I rejoined the medifast program, and this will be my last month ever on the program (there prices skyrocketed as of March 1, and they sent us food that expired within 2 weeks of our order, I am so not happy with them right now). Today, I weighed in at 147. I lost a measly 7 pounds last week, but I will take it. I want to hit 143 again, and that shouldn't be too far off. Once I hit that weight, I will go back to eating normal people food, minus all the sugar, greasy, carby crap that I ate while while mourning our attempt at parenthood. I also plan on revisiting my old friend, the swimming pool in the gym at UNLV. I paid for it with part of my tuition, might as well use it, right? I also plan on staying out of the candy bowl, and away from the ice cream machine at the institute. :)
Dean also lost 7 pounds last week, so we are the tortoise and the hare, slowing getting back down to a healthy weight, for each of us. I think it will only take a couple of more weeks for me to get back down to my "target weight" of 143, and then I will be in transition all over again, in which I will continue to eat the medifast foods that I currently have, since they are super easy to take with me to school, but I will once again re-add all fruits and vegetables. Having the on-the-go-medifast stuff makes life so much cheaper and healthier when I am at school 12 hours a day. I can eat those instead of dining at the food court, food out is very expensive. I got a salad last Friday for my lean and green meal from a place on campus, and they have 5 dollar specials each day, but there special that day had Parmesan cheese with it (and you can't substitute items on the specials) so I literally paid 2 bucks extra for my salad in order to avoid the Parmesan cheese! LOL.. Yes, I have problems. I know it.
Yes, you can say that a 10 pound weight gain back isn't all that bad, but when you put it into perspective that means that I gained 10% back, and I REALLY don't want those pounds. Nope. Nope. Nope. I have scene many people lose weight, just to add it back again, and I don't want to be in those statistics. I really don't.
Oh, and I do think that I have somewhat of an issue with gluten, since the second I started eating bread again my bile reflux made sure to let me know that it exists.... So, if anyone would be willing to share tricks or recipes of how to live gluten free, I'd welcome them! I'll check back in next week!
Tuesday, December 30, 2014
Holiday Train Wreck!
Weight loss blog:
Oh what a great day! The holidays are over! Anyone else gain
any weight during the holidays?
We went to California for Christmas, and Utah the previous
week….. It was so excited to see the look of shock on my family member’s faces.
I was the recipient of MANY “Wow! You look Fabulous! I could hardly recognize
you!” That felt good.
Then we headed to California. We had way too much good food,
and ended up eating out A LOT….I did something kind of stupid. I discovered
where I could get sticky rice in Fresno!
You can’t get that stuff in Vegas, because we basically don’t have a
Laotion population here, so that equates to no Hmong restaurants, which equates
to no sticky rice! But, when I got lost trying to find an open supermarket, I found
a Laotion restaurant with sticky rice! Dean allowed me to get some… I ordered a
large, thinking that they would fill the container half-full…. Oh boy was I
wrong… The stuffed the container…. I only ate a few bites before I was stuffed
full. We brought the rest home… to quickly find out that it doesn’t keep well. I threw it away, which is probably a very good
thing.
We also headed to my
dad’s house, the chef. Having a chef for a dad equates to lots and lots of food…..
and candy, and crap. Good food, just not good FOR you. I admittedly ate too much… I was often the
first one up, and was very hungry so I
may have ate whatever was on the counter, such as lemon meringue pie.... Yes, I
ate pie at 5 in the morning. So what?
I kept having this recurrent ridiculous thought: If I am
going to get pregnant next month, then it won’t matter what I eat now, since I
will just get fat anyway…. I am pretty sure that is indeed the same mentality
that caused me to become severely obese to begin with. 
Oh, you want to what elected as the most amusing thing to
occur in 2014? Over the course of the
holidays Dean and I acquired 108.88 ounces of chocolates and candy, that is
nearly 7 pounds…This is 4,400 calories. 850 calories from fat… and 592 grams of
sugar (plus some… who knows the breakdown of what the See’s gift cards will
turn into) … some of the chocolates were gifts, some Dean scouring the clearance
racks while we were Christmas shopping for 2015… yes, we always go shopping for
Christmas all year round… yes, we know we are weird, no we don’t care. And for good measure: here is picture:
Reluctantly, I chose to get on the scale yesterday morning…
To have the numbers 149 appear…. My heart stopped. I lost my 100 pound weight loss… I stood
there in my kitchen looking at the fridge… Looking at the chocolates on the
counter…. And looking at my leftover MediFast stash… I knew we didn’t have any
food in the fridge…. I knew that if I indulged in the food pictured above it
would very quickly rocket me back to the ‘overweight’ category.
I chose to get back on MediFast, to lose those holiday
pounds… Today, the scale reveled 147…. Which is good, only a few more pounds to
go… of course this was met with Dean complaining that I have become too obsessed
with my weight, and that’s it has gotten ridiculous. His comments somewhat hurt
my feelings, because I just want to be healthy… When my weight fluctuates
upwards, I can feel the difference in my body… its harder to get down and play
with my fur kids, its harder to breathe, etc. Yeah, I know that most of the weight is probably just water weight from all the carbs, and its melting off easily, but for my own mental health, I greatly enjoyed seeing the numbers decline by two pounds this morning!
Monday, December 15, 2014
Perfection!
Hi people! I do still exist!
Guess what? National day of stuff yourself until you make yourself ill (aka Thanksgiving) is now in the rear view mirror.....I made Thanksgiving dinner at the Mother in laws house, and therefore, there was a nice, healthy modern twist to turkey day... for the most part. The mother in law was in charge of buying ingredients and we all know that she can't follow directions so she purchased some incredibly wrong ingredients, but we survived. We then had ANOTHER Thanksgiving dinner at my dads house... I noticed my plate after everything was served.... I had taken nothing more then a sampling of each item... and I thought "how pathetic am I?! This is ridiculous! But I ate my plate and enjoyed my food, without packing on the pounds....
And then, finals week hit....I discovered that I am a "stress eater" when I am under stress, I want to pig our on the most unhealthy things imaginable......
One of my finals was going out to eat at a very fancy Italian restaurant... at the beginning of the meal my teacher pulled me aside and asked if I could have what was being offered, he made it a point to tell me that he would order me something not on the "UNLV Party" Menu, so that I could enjoy my time out with my new found friends, and not sabotage my "diet".... I ate what was offered with no qualms. We had pasta for an appetizer, a choice of either chicken or salmon for an entree, and tiramasu and a connoli for desert. Very small portions, but very tasty.... oh, and the most delectable bread imaginable!
Well, in case if you are wondering about the very generous congratulatory gift card if it has been spent yet: It has not. I wanted to utilize it to get an outfit after several months of maintaining, as a sort of incentive to stick with healthy habits! I'll post photos whenever I get to go shopping.... School has stolen more time then I thought it would, I quickly found out that taking 18 units in one semester was bonkers!
Today, the scale revealed the numbers 143.... I have been perfectly maintaining for 3 months now!
Guess what? National day of stuff yourself until you make yourself ill (aka Thanksgiving) is now in the rear view mirror.....I made Thanksgiving dinner at the Mother in laws house, and therefore, there was a nice, healthy modern twist to turkey day... for the most part. The mother in law was in charge of buying ingredients and we all know that she can't follow directions so she purchased some incredibly wrong ingredients, but we survived. We then had ANOTHER Thanksgiving dinner at my dads house... I noticed my plate after everything was served.... I had taken nothing more then a sampling of each item... and I thought "how pathetic am I?! This is ridiculous! But I ate my plate and enjoyed my food, without packing on the pounds....
And then, finals week hit....I discovered that I am a "stress eater" when I am under stress, I want to pig our on the most unhealthy things imaginable......
One of my finals was going out to eat at a very fancy Italian restaurant... at the beginning of the meal my teacher pulled me aside and asked if I could have what was being offered, he made it a point to tell me that he would order me something not on the "UNLV Party" Menu, so that I could enjoy my time out with my new found friends, and not sabotage my "diet".... I ate what was offered with no qualms. We had pasta for an appetizer, a choice of either chicken or salmon for an entree, and tiramasu and a connoli for desert. Very small portions, but very tasty.... oh, and the most delectable bread imaginable!
Well, in case if you are wondering about the very generous congratulatory gift card if it has been spent yet: It has not. I wanted to utilize it to get an outfit after several months of maintaining, as a sort of incentive to stick with healthy habits! I'll post photos whenever I get to go shopping.... School has stolen more time then I thought it would, I quickly found out that taking 18 units in one semester was bonkers!
Today, the scale revealed the numbers 143.... I have been perfectly maintaining for 3 months now!
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
Maintaining
Hi people! I'm still in blogosphere on this site... Life just got insanely busy, and I have been updating another blog more often.
I finished crossing the finish line of shrinking a long time ago.
It is still really, really cold here, and I can't do anything to get warm! It's kind of ridiculous! I recently learned in my food and beverage class that some people in certain cultures eat spicy food to keep warm... maybe I should try that? Not likely since I hate spicy food.
I am now able to eat anything that I please... But I have noticed that when I do eat not the healthiest of items, I feel bloated, and very, very fat. Yes, I am aware that there is probably some mental health disorder that I meet the criteria for because of this.
We are now in the midst of the holiday season, and I recently read a report that the average American gains 15 pounds throughout the holidays! That is just ridiculous, but I am determined to keep the holiday pounds at bay! It might prove to be a huge challenge, but was not losing more than 100 a challenge in and of itself?
All year I have been looking forward to shocking my family at upcoming holiday get-togethers because most of my family members have no idea I shrank... and I am greatly disappointed to announce that this will not occur. :(
Even though I have not been updating this thing consistently like I have previously done, I am been keeping a very, very firm eye on Mr. Scale. Meaning that I have weighed myself, basically every single day. I figure that if I let go of watching the scale, that is when the pounds will ambush me again and come back in full force!
I have been consistently right around 143... which means I have maintained for two consecutive months!
I finished crossing the finish line of shrinking a long time ago.
It is still really, really cold here, and I can't do anything to get warm! It's kind of ridiculous! I recently learned in my food and beverage class that some people in certain cultures eat spicy food to keep warm... maybe I should try that? Not likely since I hate spicy food.
I am now able to eat anything that I please... But I have noticed that when I do eat not the healthiest of items, I feel bloated, and very, very fat. Yes, I am aware that there is probably some mental health disorder that I meet the criteria for because of this.
We are now in the midst of the holiday season, and I recently read a report that the average American gains 15 pounds throughout the holidays! That is just ridiculous, but I am determined to keep the holiday pounds at bay! It might prove to be a huge challenge, but was not losing more than 100 a challenge in and of itself?
All year I have been looking forward to shocking my family at upcoming holiday get-togethers because most of my family members have no idea I shrank... and I am greatly disappointed to announce that this will not occur. :(
Even though I have not been updating this thing consistently like I have previously done, I am been keeping a very, very firm eye on Mr. Scale. Meaning that I have weighed myself, basically every single day. I figure that if I let go of watching the scale, that is when the pounds will ambush me again and come back in full force!
I have been consistently right around 143... which means I have maintained for two consecutive months!
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
Tricks....or....Treats.....
So...I woke up today and discovered its Wednesday... A little late, but time to update ya'll. (This post was obviously started last week)... Its now Tuesday, but who really cares.... besides Dean.... He's standing here telling me I am confused about the days of the week!
I have decided that...
Its okay to continue to refuse those fattening foods at my monthly meetings (pizza and soda) as I arrived to the meeting last night, I saw the pizza come in... I thought: I can actually have some.... then I thought... no I can't. I know better then that now! Every time I am offered them by the bosses, and I just pass the items down the row, and I get looks and giggles from the other health coaches at my meeting that reads of "Your not going to give up, are you... you are going to stay strong.... you win..." And dang right: I WIN!
It okay to go to ward parties, and eat the pulled pork sandwiches without the bun.
Its okay to refrain from candy.
Its okay to still drink lots, and lots of water.
Its okay to forgo the elevator and take the stairs---fabulous in fact! Stairs are somehow faster then the elevators.
Last week, I had an episode of severe mania.....I purged my house of everything we do not use or need.... I took 2 gigantic trash bags of my fat girl clothes to Desert Industries.. You know how people have those favorite articles of clothing for when they "fit into them again" well.... I decided that I never want to be able to fit into them again, and donated everything that now longer fits (besides sentimental articles like my All-Star Soccer Jacket and such.) That way I don't have any reason to get fat again... But I have a 100 reasons to maintain my weight loss. :)
The yearly ode to fat and sugar and random costumes holiday has now passed. When I went grocery shopping last week, I saw the Halloween candy aisle. I stood there, debating whether or not to buy candy for the trick or treaters. Then, I remembered that the last two years we did not get any kids. So I decided not to buy any candy. Why invite temptation into my house?
Last Tuesday, one of the girls in my psych class, who was in previous classes with me, informed me she has been going to the gym at 4am... and that she has been utilizing my Before and After as her inspiration... she wants to be where I am (a 100 pound weight loss) in a year.
Last night, one of my group members in my Food and Beverage class asked if I had handed out candy to the little munchkins. I told him no. In disgust he asked me "What kind of Mormon are you?!" Without hesitation I responded by saying: "The kind that does not contribute to the obesity epidemic of children in America." He stood there stunned, and didn't know how to respond.
Okay, so here is the update about me: I have been weighing in at 143, consistently! Yeah!
On transition, I am now allowed to eat fruits again... So I have been eating pears and kiwis! I looked up the nutritional values of them, and found that they are relatively low in calories.
So, I have had a problem... Vegas all of a sudden got super cold (and I hate cold weather).... I have wanted to drink hot chocolate to warm up, my mom Bonnie probably started that ritual.... But I have not wanted to start drinking calories and sugar. So I asked on the facebook support group for MediFast if anyone had any recipes for "approved" hot chocolate... One person issued a recipe for hot chocolate that contained no sugar, and only 10 calories. I went to the store and obtained the nessesary ingredients.... and tried it.... yuck! It was like drinking a dry brownie mix.... Our home does not have a heater, so I wanted to eat warm food to warm up.... but I knew that that was not a healthy alternative.... Instead.... Dean got me a fabulous new space heater! Ha! Calorie-free warmth! YEAH!!!!
Also, it is important to note that the other day, I received a very generous gift card and special card in the mail from one of my biggest supporters (Dawna) so that I could utilize the gift card to get me new clothes that fit.... I am so very, very, very grateful for it! I definitely will get new clothes with it... when I have actually have spare time to go shopping! In the card she stated that she wished my mom was here to see my weight loss, and that Mom would be proud of me... The truth is, I am sure she has watched me from the beginning and has been very proud of me! I lost the weight, partly in remembrance of Mom. Thank you so very, very much Dawna!!!
Here's to another week of maintaining in the 140-145 range! (As I finished typing this, Dean asked me what kind of candy I wanted.... apparently he went trick or treating at work...and thinks I should eat candy.... turkey..lol)
I have decided that...
Its okay to continue to refuse those fattening foods at my monthly meetings (pizza and soda) as I arrived to the meeting last night, I saw the pizza come in... I thought: I can actually have some.... then I thought... no I can't. I know better then that now! Every time I am offered them by the bosses, and I just pass the items down the row, and I get looks and giggles from the other health coaches at my meeting that reads of "Your not going to give up, are you... you are going to stay strong.... you win..." And dang right: I WIN!
It okay to go to ward parties, and eat the pulled pork sandwiches without the bun.
Its okay to refrain from candy.
Its okay to still drink lots, and lots of water.
Its okay to forgo the elevator and take the stairs---fabulous in fact! Stairs are somehow faster then the elevators.
Last week, I had an episode of severe mania.....I purged my house of everything we do not use or need.... I took 2 gigantic trash bags of my fat girl clothes to Desert Industries.. You know how people have those favorite articles of clothing for when they "fit into them again" well.... I decided that I never want to be able to fit into them again, and donated everything that now longer fits (besides sentimental articles like my All-Star Soccer Jacket and such.) That way I don't have any reason to get fat again... But I have a 100 reasons to maintain my weight loss. :)
The yearly ode to fat and sugar and random costumes holiday has now passed. When I went grocery shopping last week, I saw the Halloween candy aisle. I stood there, debating whether or not to buy candy for the trick or treaters. Then, I remembered that the last two years we did not get any kids. So I decided not to buy any candy. Why invite temptation into my house?
Last Tuesday, one of the girls in my psych class, who was in previous classes with me, informed me she has been going to the gym at 4am... and that she has been utilizing my Before and After as her inspiration... she wants to be where I am (a 100 pound weight loss) in a year.
Last night, one of my group members in my Food and Beverage class asked if I had handed out candy to the little munchkins. I told him no. In disgust he asked me "What kind of Mormon are you?!" Without hesitation I responded by saying: "The kind that does not contribute to the obesity epidemic of children in America." He stood there stunned, and didn't know how to respond.
Okay, so here is the update about me: I have been weighing in at 143, consistently! Yeah!
On transition, I am now allowed to eat fruits again... So I have been eating pears and kiwis! I looked up the nutritional values of them, and found that they are relatively low in calories.
So, I have had a problem... Vegas all of a sudden got super cold (and I hate cold weather).... I have wanted to drink hot chocolate to warm up, my mom Bonnie probably started that ritual.... But I have not wanted to start drinking calories and sugar. So I asked on the facebook support group for MediFast if anyone had any recipes for "approved" hot chocolate... One person issued a recipe for hot chocolate that contained no sugar, and only 10 calories. I went to the store and obtained the nessesary ingredients.... and tried it.... yuck! It was like drinking a dry brownie mix.... Our home does not have a heater, so I wanted to eat warm food to warm up.... but I knew that that was not a healthy alternative.... Instead.... Dean got me a fabulous new space heater! Ha! Calorie-free warmth! YEAH!!!!
Also, it is important to note that the other day, I received a very generous gift card and special card in the mail from one of my biggest supporters (Dawna) so that I could utilize the gift card to get me new clothes that fit.... I am so very, very, very grateful for it! I definitely will get new clothes with it... when I have actually have spare time to go shopping! In the card she stated that she wished my mom was here to see my weight loss, and that Mom would be proud of me... The truth is, I am sure she has watched me from the beginning and has been very proud of me! I lost the weight, partly in remembrance of Mom. Thank you so very, very much Dawna!!!
Here's to another week of maintaining in the 140-145 range! (As I finished typing this, Dean asked me what kind of candy I wanted.... apparently he went trick or treating at work...and thinks I should eat candy.... turkey..lol)
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