The End of an Era

Well... One week has come and gone... I stayed true to the Medifast plan until last night where I ate some corn that Dean had attempted to cook my way,  and I needed to rescue him (he didn't ask for directions, and just started trying to figure it out on his own....) I tasted it so that I could make the nessesary adjustments, and cook his dinner. Corn isn't allowed on the MediFast diet  because it is too high in sugar and Carbs.

The previous  weekend we went to an arts and crafts festival where we purchased some bread, but I immediately threw it all in the freezer. I figure that its okay to have temptation in the house, as long as I can't see it. LOL... Speaking of temptation, Dean and I went to the market this weekend to get Halibut, it was on a killer deal, and its the only sea food that I find palatable. Of course Dean checked out the clearance section, where he found Caramel Carbury eggs... We got a few packages, with the reasoning that this will most likely be the last year that you can get them in the US.... I didn't want to eat them, so I again, shoved them in the fridge. I'd like to, but my scale says that I really shouldn't. 

This morning, I went to pack my day's worth of food.... and my heart shattered when I discovered that I was completely out of MediFast on the go bars. Apparently I had empty boxes just chilling on my "diet food shelves." I still have minimal amount of soups and shakes but those are not very conducive for my needs of eating a quick meal in between classes.  Due to the rise in prices, and us saving up for very large purchases,  we are not capable of purchasing any more MediFast foods, which we knew when we placed our last order. An end of era has arrived.  I must figure out how to lose weight, and maintain weight with out the aid of pre-packaged meals.

I often wonder if I would be more serious about maintaining my weight if I had lost it the hard way. Meaning, hours of blood, sweat, and tears spent at the gym.  I wonder if I lost the weight the easy way, and am now paying the price for it. I'm stressing out about maintaining.

Oh, I forgot to mention last post that when I went to see my physciain for an eye problem, he stated that he was concerend with my weight.... I looked too skinny. Can't win. Can't lose. He has always been concerned with adverse side effects raising from losing too much.  I also forgot to mention last week that when I was hanging out with my new friends here, it was the happiest I have felt since moving here, and perhaps in my entire adult life. That begs the question: does consuming food cause happiness, or does the company of good friends?

This Wednesday night Dean and I are planning on going to the final dinner at the culinary school for date night.  I hope this doesn't effect the scale too badly. Maybe I shall go for a swim that day.

I was hoping to shake hands with the 100 pound weight loss mark once again today, but that didn't happen. The scale revealed 148. Just three pounds shy of reclaiming the 100 pounds gone, and 10 pounds total lost last week. I was greatly disappointed, but 10 pounds is double what they say to expect the first week.  I think in order to help me with all of this nonsense of losing three more pounds and maintaining, I am going to pack a lunchbox of fresh fruits and vegetables, and protein to be consumed throughout the day.

Who knew all things regarding weight loss could be so stressful?!