I went back on Plan on Tuesday, Tuesday was a very rough day.... I ended up being at work for nearly 7 hours, with no opportunities to chow down on a meal replacement... Towards the end of the day, I felt ill, like I needed something to eat, and immediately, similar to what I felt Friday night. I knew I had a 2 hour bus ride home, and began to think frantically of places I could go nearby for some healthy food. Thankfully a friend and coworker of mine offered me a ride home, so I got home much sooner then later, and was able to eat my lean and green upon arriving home. The following days were rough.... I wanted Olive Garden and Popcorn oh so very badly....I think this speaks to how salt can be so addictive. I was good though, and didn't succumb to temptation. Update regarding this popcorn temptation: On Saturday, Take Shape For Life announced new snacks. 2 flavors of popcorn, and 2 flavors of chips. I am excited to try those!
On Wednesday I was able to purchase a new order, and it should be here on Tuesday (Tomorrow), which is the exact day I will run out of current food. So that's good. However, I realized that most of the items I chose for this month, is mostly chocolate, and I am expecting most of it to arrive melted, unfortunately so.
It is unclear or not weather I will purchase one more food order. I am hoping to reach my first goal of 150 with this food order, however, I want to hit 145, when I hit 145 I will have join the centennial club.... 145 is comfortably in the healthy weight range, 154 is just barely in the healthy weight range, (if you utilize the BMI chart according to the center of disease control and prevention) so you can see my reasoning for pushing myself that much further. However, I will be basically out of work for the duration of at least 3 weeks because my client's are going to be on vacation, so it goes without saying, that we will be unable to afford it.
Many people have inquired what I am going to do to celebrate my success when I am done with the shrinking part of my journey, for a while, I was determined to go to Disneyland. But I don't think that's in the cards for me anymore, due to it's outrageous cost. But I have been thinking that I kind of want to celebrate with my friends and family. I know it will never, ever happen, but I think it would be cool to have a reception-type event where we all (the several of us who have dropped tons of weight together) reveal our new looks to our family and friends. I think that would be fun, but know it's an unrealistic expectation. I know that if my Momma were still alive, she would definitely throw this for us. But, since she returned home, I know that's not a realistic expectation.
Saturday night we attended a farewell party for our current institute director.
I was applauded for my hard work and determination. I always dismiss the hard work comments. That is because I picture work for weight loss as having to spend hours a day at the gym. With the weight loss program that I have done, it's no harder then just eating. I simply just eat what is prescribed. It is true that motivation and determination is what helps me refuse foods that are not healthy that are offered. Saturday night while at the farewell party, there was a bountiful amount of unhealthy foods such as nachos, brownies, cookies, cakes, candy, etc. While I gave eating these items a minimal amount of thought, I chose not to partake, instead I ate a meal replacement bar during the event. Seeing the numbers on the scale move downwards means more to me then enjoying fattening foods with friends. Someone also stated that many people have chosen to just die from complications of obesity, rather then cure themselves of it. They said a lot of people don't have the determination or motivation. I let him in on a secret. I watched my mom's life be stolen by diabetes, and I refuse to follow that example. I would almost venture to say that I have shrunk, in memoriam of her. Today is her birthday.
The scale revealed the numbers of 156.... that's just 2 pounds away from escaping the overweight range on the BMI chart (if you use the cdc.gov BMI calculator)... So happy birthday, Mom. I'm almost healthy!!!
I was applauded for my hard work and determination. I always dismiss the hard work comments. That is because I picture work for weight loss as having to spend hours a day at the gym. With the weight loss program that I have done, it's no harder then just eating. I simply just eat what is prescribed. It is true that motivation and determination is what helps me refuse foods that are not healthy that are offered. Saturday night while at the farewell party, there was a bountiful amount of unhealthy foods such as nachos, brownies, cookies, cakes, candy, etc. While I gave eating these items a minimal amount of thought, I chose not to partake, instead I ate a meal replacement bar during the event. Seeing the numbers on the scale move downwards means more to me then enjoying fattening foods with friends. Someone also stated that many people have chosen to just die from complications of obesity, rather then cure themselves of it. They said a lot of people don't have the determination or motivation. I let him in on a secret. I watched my mom's life be stolen by diabetes, and I refuse to follow that example. I would almost venture to say that I have shrunk, in memoriam of her. Today is her birthday.
The scale revealed the numbers of 156.... that's just 2 pounds away from escaping the overweight range on the BMI chart (if you use the cdc.gov BMI calculator)... So happy birthday, Mom. I'm almost healthy!!!
Every time I read one of your updates, I am so impressed with how amazingly well you are doing. Every reply I can think of seems trite in view of what you have been doing. I do want you to know, though, that I am reading each one and that I am so very impressed, and incredibly proud of you.
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine a more fitting birthday tribute to your mom than to know that her daughter is doing such a difficult thing, and with such amazing determination and perseverance. I know how much she loved and was proud of the little girl that you were, and I absolutely know without a doubt that she would be so very impressed with what you are doing to improve your health.