Well... One week has come and gone... I stayed true to the Medifast plan until last night where I ate some corn that Dean had attempted to cook my way, and I needed to rescue him (he didn't ask for directions, and just started trying to figure it out on his own....) I tasted it so that I could make the nessesary adjustments, and cook his dinner. Corn isn't allowed on the MediFast diet because it is too high in sugar and Carbs.
The previous weekend we went to an arts and crafts festival where we purchased some bread, but I immediately threw it all in the freezer. I figure that its okay to have temptation in the house, as long as I can't see it. LOL... Speaking of temptation, Dean and I went to the market this weekend to get Halibut, it was on a killer deal, and its the only sea food that I find palatable. Of course Dean checked out the clearance section, where he found Caramel Carbury eggs... We got a few packages, with the reasoning that this will most likely be the last year that you can get them in the US.... I didn't want to eat them, so I again, shoved them in the fridge. I'd like to, but my scale says that I really shouldn't.
This morning, I went to pack my day's worth of food.... and my heart shattered when I discovered that I was completely out of MediFast on the go bars. Apparently I had empty boxes just chilling on my "diet food shelves." I still have minimal amount of soups and shakes but those are not very conducive for my needs of eating a quick meal in between classes. Due to the rise in prices, and us saving up for very large purchases, we are not capable of purchasing any more MediFast foods, which we knew when we placed our last order. An end of era has arrived. I must figure out how to lose weight, and maintain weight with out the aid of pre-packaged meals.
I often wonder if I would be more serious about maintaining my weight if I had lost it the hard way. Meaning, hours of blood, sweat, and tears spent at the gym. I wonder if I lost the weight the easy way, and am now paying the price for it. I'm stressing out about maintaining.
Oh, I forgot to mention last post that when I went to see my physciain for an eye problem, he stated that he was concerend with my weight.... I looked too skinny. Can't win. Can't lose. He has always been concerned with adverse side effects raising from losing too much. I also forgot to mention last week that when I was hanging out with my new friends here, it was the happiest I have felt since moving here, and perhaps in my entire adult life. That begs the question: does consuming food cause happiness, or does the company of good friends?
This Wednesday night Dean and I are planning on going to the final dinner at the culinary school for date night. I hope this doesn't effect the scale too badly. Maybe I shall go for a swim that day.
I was hoping to shake hands with the 100 pound weight loss mark once again today, but that didn't happen. The scale revealed 148. Just three pounds shy of reclaiming the 100 pounds gone, and 10 pounds total lost last week. I was greatly disappointed, but 10 pounds is double what they say to expect the first week. I think in order to help me with all of this nonsense of losing three more pounds and maintaining, I am going to pack a lunchbox of fresh fruits and vegetables, and protein to be consumed throughout the day.
Who knew all things regarding weight loss could be so stressful?!
Monday, April 20, 2015
Monday, April 13, 2015
Didn't Care.
This will be short and sweet since I have to go to class very soon.
Many moons ago, I went back on Medifast, for a couple of days. It was excruciatingly hard to go back on it when I had been enjoying real food for such a long time, I realized how hard it is to actually follow the directions. Then I launched myself right back off. I didn't care. The culinary school had one of their lunches that I had wanted to go to. It was bacon themed, completed with bacon brownies. I continued to not go back on Medifast for a bit, and I evened out at about 155, with a standard deviation of about 3 pounds (depending on day, date, what I recently ate, etc). I can feel the extra poundage on me, and I don't like it.Not one bit. It's rather disappointing.
During this time, I ate out with my friends a lot. For the first time in our entire duration of living here, I feel like I have made some really good friends. I felt loved and included. I was actually invited to a birthday dinner for one of them, and I went. It was Greek food (not all that bad for you, but still high in calories, I am sure). I have never been invited out with people here (other then Mitchell... I need to hire a private investigator to track down his butt... The look on his face when I see him again is something I truly long for) here in Vegas, and I didn't want to not be invited again, so I went with them, and had a marvelous time! This same group of friends is avid gym goers and hikers, we are planning the next hike, so I think just being around them will aid in me living a healthy lifestyle.
I ate multiple lunches at the culinary school, the last one I attended was last week, and the ran out of room in the dining room, so I got to sit at the "VIP" table in the kitchen, and was able to watch these students cook my food.... Ironically becasue I knew them all. I was in their culinary class last semester. But it was incredibly fun. The experience outweighed the regret, back then. Now, it is the opposite.
My shenanigans of not eating very well continued.... I even made Pop Tart donuts for crying out loud (with the intention of giving them to someone else, but I ate them instead)... which means I have to go and re-make them for the intended recipient. I think I take after my mom somewhat... See something cool/ taste something yummy and then spend hours and sometimes days re-creating it. I think I really do.
Yesterday, I decided to go back on Medifast for the final time, hopefully ever. Yesterday morning I weighed 158, today 154, so I am pleased... 10 more to go... That seems like such a huge number... Remember when I said 90 more to go? LOL. It's all perspective I guess.
I'll check back in next week! Thanks for all the support!
Many moons ago, I went back on Medifast, for a couple of days. It was excruciatingly hard to go back on it when I had been enjoying real food for such a long time, I realized how hard it is to actually follow the directions. Then I launched myself right back off. I didn't care. The culinary school had one of their lunches that I had wanted to go to. It was bacon themed, completed with bacon brownies. I continued to not go back on Medifast for a bit, and I evened out at about 155, with a standard deviation of about 3 pounds (depending on day, date, what I recently ate, etc). I can feel the extra poundage on me, and I don't like it.Not one bit. It's rather disappointing.
During this time, I ate out with my friends a lot. For the first time in our entire duration of living here, I feel like I have made some really good friends. I felt loved and included. I was actually invited to a birthday dinner for one of them, and I went. It was Greek food (not all that bad for you, but still high in calories, I am sure). I have never been invited out with people here (other then Mitchell... I need to hire a private investigator to track down his butt... The look on his face when I see him again is something I truly long for) here in Vegas, and I didn't want to not be invited again, so I went with them, and had a marvelous time! This same group of friends is avid gym goers and hikers, we are planning the next hike, so I think just being around them will aid in me living a healthy lifestyle.
I ate multiple lunches at the culinary school, the last one I attended was last week, and the ran out of room in the dining room, so I got to sit at the "VIP" table in the kitchen, and was able to watch these students cook my food.... Ironically becasue I knew them all. I was in their culinary class last semester. But it was incredibly fun. The experience outweighed the regret, back then. Now, it is the opposite.
My shenanigans of not eating very well continued.... I even made Pop Tart donuts for crying out loud (with the intention of giving them to someone else, but I ate them instead)... which means I have to go and re-make them for the intended recipient. I think I take after my mom somewhat... See something cool/ taste something yummy and then spend hours and sometimes days re-creating it. I think I really do.
Yesterday, I decided to go back on Medifast for the final time, hopefully ever. Yesterday morning I weighed 158, today 154, so I am pleased... 10 more to go... That seems like such a huge number... Remember when I said 90 more to go? LOL. It's all perspective I guess.
I'll check back in next week! Thanks for all the support!
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