Weight loss blog:
Oh what a great day! The holidays are over! Anyone else gain
any weight during the holidays?
We went to California for Christmas, and Utah the previous
week….. It was so excited to see the look of shock on my family member’s faces.
I was the recipient of MANY “Wow! You look Fabulous! I could hardly recognize
you!” That felt good.
Then we headed to California. We had way too much good food,
and ended up eating out A LOT….I did something kind of stupid. I discovered
where I could get sticky rice in Fresno!
You can’t get that stuff in Vegas, because we basically don’t have a
Laotion population here, so that equates to no Hmong restaurants, which equates
to no sticky rice! But, when I got lost trying to find an open supermarket, I found
a Laotion restaurant with sticky rice! Dean allowed me to get some… I ordered a
large, thinking that they would fill the container half-full…. Oh boy was I
wrong… The stuffed the container…. I only ate a few bites before I was stuffed
full. We brought the rest home… to quickly find out that it doesn’t keep well. I threw it away, which is probably a very good
thing.
We also headed to my
dad’s house, the chef. Having a chef for a dad equates to lots and lots of food…..
and candy, and crap. Good food, just not good FOR you. I admittedly ate too much… I was often the
first one up, and was very hungry so I
may have ate whatever was on the counter, such as lemon meringue pie.... Yes, I
ate pie at 5 in the morning. So what?
I kept having this recurrent ridiculous thought: If I am
going to get pregnant next month, then it won’t matter what I eat now, since I
will just get fat anyway…. I am pretty sure that is indeed the same mentality
that caused me to become severely obese to begin with.
Oh, you want to what elected as the most amusing thing to
occur in 2014? Over the course of the
holidays Dean and I acquired 108.88 ounces of chocolates and candy, that is
nearly 7 pounds…This is 4,400 calories. 850 calories from fat… and 592 grams of
sugar (plus some… who knows the breakdown of what the See’s gift cards will
turn into) … some of the chocolates were gifts, some Dean scouring the clearance
racks while we were Christmas shopping for 2015… yes, we always go shopping for
Christmas all year round… yes, we know we are weird, no we don’t care. And for good measure: here is picture:
Reluctantly, I chose to get on the scale yesterday morning…
To have the numbers 149 appear…. My heart stopped. I lost my 100 pound weight loss… I stood
there in my kitchen looking at the fridge… Looking at the chocolates on the
counter…. And looking at my leftover MediFast stash… I knew we didn’t have any
food in the fridge…. I knew that if I indulged in the food pictured above it
would very quickly rocket me back to the ‘overweight’ category.
I chose to get back on MediFast, to lose those holiday
pounds… Today, the scale reveled 147…. Which is good, only a few more pounds to
go… of course this was met with Dean complaining that I have become too obsessed
with my weight, and that’s it has gotten ridiculous. His comments somewhat hurt
my feelings, because I just want to be healthy… When my weight fluctuates
upwards, I can feel the difference in my body… its harder to get down and play
with my fur kids, its harder to breathe, etc. Yeah, I know that most of the weight is probably just water weight from all the carbs, and its melting off easily, but for my own mental health, I greatly enjoyed seeing the numbers decline by two pounds this morning!
It does sound like you may be obsessing a bit... Which is why so many successful diet plans talk about the mental aspect too. I understand your fear into jumping into the overweight category and I'm impressed with your ability to turn down junk food... But rather than jumping on and off medifast, you may try eating regular foods again to readjust yourself. Everyone has indulgent times, especially over the holidays, but getting back on track without having to "diet" will help you better transition between those times and avoid the "I'm fat" mentality that people who are overweight have and have a hard time getting rid of when they finally do lose the weight.
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