Hodge Podge of Secrets

So.....as I was hanging out with Kitty Kat Kay at the Vet, I received a text message from the Husband that read "Awesome. I have more bad news. Our closet just fell down." Now the way this was worded had me worried... I thought the roof, ceiling, and walls caved in, but thankfully that was not the case. Just the closet rod brackets broke, causing the rod to come tumbling down. I tried to drill a new hole to install the brackets, to no avail. This situation called for us to reorganize our organization regarding our clothing. Luckily, we already had shelves in our room that could turn into housing stations for our clothes. We do have a dresser, but I hate my outer-wear clothes being in a dresser. During all of this, we were forced to downsize our closet, which is good. We were able to create a huge bag of our fat clothes, for donation.

As we began to unbury the floor in our room, we came upon tons of clothing items, that were nothing but shocking to realize that most of the clothes that used to be too tight, and now, almost two of me can fit in one of those pant legs!

Well, we placed an order of food last week, and the order was never fully processed. TSFL took the money out of our account, and then put it back in again, three separate times. We have no idea what is going on.  I have spent many hours calling the company and trying  to figure out this hot mess,  to end up with no explanation of what is going on. I kind of feel this is happening because of two things. One being the adversary trying to destroy my progress thus far. Or, my Father in Heaven telling me that we can't afford to continue on plan until Dean establishes an income. I have no idea which one it is.

I have spent the last few days debating in my head if I should call and straighten this hot mess out,  and subsequently get the money deducted from my account, and get my food, or just wait until we have more stability with the piggy bank. However, in all honesty, I am worried sick that this nincompoop of a company will end up charging us three times for one order if we don't get this nonsense straightened out (remember, last month they charged us twice for the same order?)

Also last week, when I got out of the shower, I noticed that my face has gotten so thin, that my surgical scar  from when I had a tumor removed (in 2000) is now more evident than ever, making me feel more self-conscious than ever. Since I had this operation, my scar literally leaks fluids whenever I consume food, and this is causing me to question weather or not I should quit with my weight loss  now.

I have spent the last few weeks, nothing short of feeling burnt out with this diet.... I want to eat "real food" again. I really do... but I look at my progressive photos, and the number on the scale, and think that it would be nothing more than foolish to give up, or to employ cheating days now. However, we will be out of town next weekend for a birthday party, and staying on plan, while at a birthday party and driving for 12 hours (round trip) scares the banana crackers out of me.  I really don't know how I am going to handle this... I can handle eating my pre-packaged foods, but my lean and green meals are going to become excruciatingly difficult.  Although I will have access to a stove, the condition of the kitchen where the stove is located, should have been featured on "Hoarders" years ago. But more so than that, I have not done any cooking on any stove or oven, other than my own, since I got burned... all stoves project a different amount of heat. I know how close I can get to my stove before my battle wounds hurt, and there is no way to know that in a foreign environment (yes, heat still ignites pain in my scars) Besides the issue of getting too close to a heat source, is the issue of purchasing and storing the food items I need to stay on plan.

Yesterday, I was able to wear a skirt to church that I have not been able to wear since I was 18. Here is a photo for proof.

 

 

 



                                                   The scale clocked me in at 173 today!