Down

This will be short and sweet. I weighed in this morning, because yesterday was a flurry of getting called in for a proposed 12 hour shift,  followed by a 6 hour shift at the county. Don't worry, I compromised, but it left not being able to weigh in yesterday. Although, I did consider taking my scale to work with me, so that I could weigh in.  Read that again. I'm that dedicated to this. 

This week, I've been doing the shakes and eating healthy. On Sunday night I found myself absolutely starving, and being dizzy (blood sugar was probably too low)- so I ordered a carb free burger from postmates. It got the job done. Yesterday, a coworker ordered everyone thai food.  I got green curry, but didn't eat the rice. I ate the curry like a soup.  Laugh at me now, understand later. 

Bad news: My reason for this journey of weightloss, sank. I heard of this yesterday, and my heart was so broken. I almost thought it gave me a reason to quit. Then I found a solution.  Don't worry, plans were adjusted- it means I will have to keep the weigh off longer.  I guess we can call that motivation for maintaining. I'll have to be okay with the new plan.  It also means that I will have to keep the weight off longer. That's all the information your going to get right no (text me if you are curious). 

In other bad news: I began to love the winco peanut butter, and it is now taped off again due to covid... we found another all natural one, so we shall see if we like that one too. 

Here's this week check in: 

Scale Read 235. that is 20  pounds in 48 days on this program. 

35 since my highest. 

I am now wearing a shirt my dad gave me, that I've never been able to fit in. 

Subtraction Saturday.

Okay. I'm slowly figuring out how to get photos up on this (blogger changed its format during the time I was MIA).

Okay, this is a two week round up. Last week I was on vacation.  Here is the update on my shenanigans on my trip:

Wednesday, I went out with some friends. I got a tri tip salad, it was so good. But it was even better to be with good friends. 

Thursday I woke up at the hotel, and had a chocolate shake, without any fruit mix ins. It wasn't too shabby.  I used my travel blend jet blender... People have told me it doesn't have the power to actually blend mix-ins, but I didn't have any to begin with, so I made do with just the shake and chia seeds.  I also went to another friend's house, and she had a salad for me. Super thoughtful. It was so great to be with friends both on Wednesday and Thursday, with people who care about me, love me, support me, and respect me. I think I have been starving for those things for years in my own home. 

Friday. It was my birthday. I don't believe in cheat days, my philosophy is either you are doing the program, or you are not.  We had lasagna for dinner (the most carb loaded thing I can think of!).  My dad made me my own healthier version. He made me eggplant lasagna. It was good (I like the sauce he made, all homemade).  But he also made peach cobbler (from home grown peaches) I'm pretty sure they forgot it was my birthday until Dean texted them and reminded them of the event, but whatever. Definitely not the first time. Okay, back to the cobbler. I've told him I am doing no sugar no carbs. But I know there was sugar in the peach cobbler.  But it was my birthday, so I had a small portion. But I also gave the topping (made out of bisquick, which I can't stand to begin with); to my sister.  They wanted garlic bread with their lasagna,  so I went into the store to get it. While I was there I looked for, and found Keto ice cream (I thought only Costco sold that scrumptious stuff).   At first I didn't buy any (it was 7 bucks for a pint!), but we went to another store, and found it for 5 bucks, and got it, to go with my peach cobbler "birthday cake". I was hesitant to try it... but it was so dang good! The associate person said they sell a lot of that brand. The Brand is Rebel, if anyone wants to know. I love the name, because I am UNLV (Rebel) Alumni. Haha.

Saturday, we ate eggs and ham for breakfast, and then leftovers the rest of the day.  I saw a scale in my dad's bathroom, so I jumped on it. It read 240. I thought it was good I wasn't over that. And I know it may be different configurations, not the same scale, lady-ness, etc. And I headed home to Vegas. I had road trip snacks (no sugar added-dried fruit anyone).  So good, but there was coins in the bag, I didn't notice them until they were in my mouth, so that was fun. 

Okay, the travel log is over. Let's get to this week. It's been a blur of working a lot, being exhausted from the trip, being in mental anguish from the mortal departure of a loved one, and just overall hurting. Oh, and I'm sick too. I'm not sure what I have. My first two guesses were strep throat and or inner ear infection.  Could be covid since they  seemingly change the symptoms every other day (don't worry ya'll, I was tested on Tuesday. That sucked with an already sore throat.).  I feel like it's spin the wheel, and see where you land, and that's what you have. `Anyway, I'm back on antibiotics for what I self diagnosed as strep throat, and ordered the antibiotics from callondoc. I can't take the antibiotics on just a shake, but I'm still eating whole healthy foods, and my shakes for lunch.

Okay, I took a week off of Child Haven for my trip and for some Rest and Relaxation (that didn't really happen),  but I got back to work on Wednesday.  During the day, I got called over to the desk, thinking I was in trouble. Someone said "So, I've noticed you are dropping quite a few pounds over there. What are you doing?" Insert me having to explain my shenanigans. You all know my shenanigans, so I will save you the stories I told this person. But they said that they had underestimated me.   But when I explained my shenanigans to them, I was accused of having a guy on the side.  Long story short, I'm going to give this person a sample pack I have. They are interested in it.   It felt good that someone noticed. Another person said they were proud of me, and offered to get me something from the store that is on my diet plan when there was a grill-day. I declined, and just had my shake.  This person made a comment to another person that it will be my fault that they stop cooking for the campus. I don't know how that's my fault. haha. 

Another person saw my shake and asked me what it was. I told them a protein shake with chia seeds. Then they wanted to instigate an argument about what it was, and what it does to you (bathroom habits), but I disagreed with their ideas, because I haven't experienced what I was accused of experiencing. 

I've been wanting peanut butter with my apples and bananas. So I just got the fresh stuff from Winco.  Dean and I agreed it's an acquired taste. But it's my option, so I will eat it.

Okay. Here is the fun part of the week. I wore a size 3x shirt to work. (I had just bought them). I looked in the mirror and realized, I was having severe wardrobe malfunctions (showing off the underclothing).  I borrowed a coworker,  who also is very conscious of modesty, and had her take a stapler to my shirt. It worked. It was hilarious, but it worked.

 My stapled shirt. It kinda looked like a dress.

Okay, that is the two week round up. 

Here are the stats: I now weigh 237. 

Can I be under 235 next week? Stay Tuned. 

Update

Here's a quick check in: The scale reads today at a whopping 240. 

I have hit the 15 pound mark.  The lose it app says that is the weight of a large bowling ball.  They have cute sayings. Yesterday it told me it was the weighed of a watermelon. 

I might weigh in on Tuesday just to see, but maybe not, cause it should be the same time, same wardrobe, each and every time. Yes,  I know I'm not supposed to weigh in daily, but I was so excited to hit 240, like a wacko. And I'm okay with that. 

Checkin in Before Checking out

Okay. *may contain some ugly words* lol 

I'll try to make this short and sweet. 

Went to whole foods yesterday and got some "healthy snacks" for my trip. I have now turned into the person that reads the labels, on everything, before it goes in the cart.  Looking at the carbs, sugar and fiber grabs. I am sure it drives everyone around me insane (Dean included), but I only exist in this universe for me, and no one else. 

I got stuff like no sugar -grass fed jerky, almonds, pork rinds, etc. 

Dean has done nothing but complain about the cost of this diet since I jumped on the boat (it's cheaper than Medifast); but I'm eating healthier versions of food. He is still convinced that a box of mac and cheese, consists of a great, wholesome meal.  He's also firmly working through eating a dozen donuts, by himself. In three days time.  Yesterday I texted my childhood best friend that if dude complains about my diet one more time,  I'm going to need help hiding some remains. As I was typing it, the gripe fest from him ignited. I just bit his head off- I can't take Dean the asshole complaining about me and what I'm doing one more time. I just can't.   

I am aiming to go back to Minus Mondays (only cause I like the sounds of it), but maybe Saturday is probably the best bet. 

I've been digging some smaller sized clothes out of my closet. Yesterday, I decided to try something on, just to see if I could fit (I haven't been able to in a couple of years.  

AND IT FIT!!!! My Starting size (in women's- was a tight 24.)  But I mostly wear mens cloths, and started out at 46. I had to special order my pants from work from the internet, as stores don't up that high in size.  I fit into an 18 yesterday. Oh, and I also got two new sport's bra's (for the first time, ever name brand ones), that are a size smaller. I guessed at what would fit (fitting rooms are still locked up), got them home, they fit and are comfy! 

So, here is today's stats.  I weight in at a whopping 241. (that's four pounds since Sunday). I was really hoping hit the 230's this week. But you know, safe weight loss and all. 

Can I hit the 30's, while on being on vacation for 4 days??? Let's find out. 

I won't be posting next Saturday, I'll be in California with my family.  But probably will  on Monday. 

Marching On!

Do you ever have days, moments, weeks, when you feel like you are going to have a nervous breakdown? Thats been my week. 

I've been living off of  not enough sleep. Family Heartbreaks. Drama at work. You name it. 

This morning was the worst of it.  As of last Friday, we are mandated to wear masks when outside of our homes. Work have had the same rules at work for months, but I always gotten away with not wearing one, because I was by myself in a mansion of a house. I mean, who was I protecting from getting the virus, the scorpions?  So now I have to wear a mask because we have people staying there again. 

Yesterday, a coworker made everyone breakfast, including pancakes. I didn't eat those.  Eventually I told the chef I hadn't had any carbs in multiple weeks, they responded that that's good. One coworker saw me drinking my shake, and kind of made fun of me for it. This person has always been ranked my least likely person to be around).  But I marched on.  This person's comments  and opinions I have never held in much care for. 

Today, I drank my shake at my normal time (3am). Noticed on the bag of my frozen fruits, that it actually expired in February of 2018. I despise eating expired foods (I've gotten food poisoning way too many times.)  But I figured I must have had consumed it multiple days prior, so I marched on! 

At work this morning,  I got "sick". Like felt like I couldn't breathe. Felt like it may be asthma. Took my mask off, and just sat there. Eventually I took my inhaler. I didn't think I could do the drive home (30 minutes), but marched on. Got home.  And just stood at the entryway. I couldn't even talk to Dean. He was asking me stuff, and I couldn't muscle up a response. Then I thought, maybe I just needed to eat something. I ate almost two string cheeses (Nala bear shares with me), some pickles, and an egg. Pickles have always been good at curing my dizzy spells. I kneeled next to the fridge, and ate some. I was probably dehydrated too. But I relaxed on the couch for a bit, and felt better. Before that I couldn't even look at my phone screen without it dancing around. I don't know what was wrong, but I really wanted to go to the gym, but as soon as I started feeling crappy at work, I decided to just not. 

Fast forward: I wanted  sausage links and cabbage from the store, and spaghetti squash.  I decided not to go today (tomorrow is payday). Ended up in a dog chase in my car (not involving my dogs),  once the incident was under control, I thought, well I'm out now. May as well. Then I realized I was wearing socks, with slides (huge fashion mistake), but then I thought,  what the hell, I don't exist in the universe for anyone but me.  I marched on, and went anyway. 

On my way there, some lady motioned me to turn into the parking lot of a church that supports the HIV community (which is great). We always see the line of cars for this event, but never stopped.  We knew it was a food giveaway, but we typically go to the one sponsored by the LDS church. We thought the HIV one was for only that group (and I love how there is a church that supports them). But they had no body there today, which may be indicative of our economy stabilizing, for now.  So I went in and ended up getting several cases of free food. You never know what's in them, until you get home. This weeks round up was mostly stuff I can't eat ( 2 cases of bread); sodas, etc. So I was disappointed, and will probably rehome most of the stuff to coworkers. 

But then, there was a bunch of protein stuff I can eat! Eggs, chicken, sausages (that I had actually forgotten to pick up at the store), and bison. (Never had that before, so I'm not sure how to cook it, so this could be an adventure.  I was excited to see this! 

Anyway, no stats today, but my pants that I just bought because all of my other pants were too big and holy, are now too big! I forgot a belt the other day, my coworker fixed me up with  zip tie, and life just marched on!

 

( I was trying to upload photos, but can't seem to right now.). Oh well.