103 problems of weight loss

Well, what do you know, I have disappeared from cyber land the last few weeks. Sorry folks.  But taking this 18 units of credit has been kicking my keister, and we have been incredibly busy traveling into various states to see family. (Next semester, my plan is to take 22 units..)

Transition, is rocky. I know now that transition will probably be the hardest component of the program. My brain has tried to tell myself that since I am done losing the weight, that I can eat the candy bar (snack size) or the ice cream, cause they won't make me get fat overnight. The truth is, this information is false. Living by that philosophy, is exactly how people manage to get fat again. The one candy bar will multiple, and then you ended up eating a kazillion calories for one day.

I have also had a terrible time with the temptress of fast foods, or to go foods. Especially when I am an idiot and leave my lunch pail in the car.  I usually just get a salad, and decided that that's too expensive. Its time that I slowly start weaning myself off of the meal replacements. So I think I have devised a plan to wean myself off of the meal replacements, but still have healthy meals six times per day. On Sunday I am going to cut up fresh vegetables, and portion them out for the week and place them in containers so all I have to do is grab them from the fridge, throw them in my lunch pail and eat. I  also set aside fresh fruit (not packaged ones due to the high content of sugar that's added to the syrups).  I hope that this method wont cause me to gain weight back. Dean doesn't want me to do it though, because he thinks that is still technically MediFast.

So, I went to the doctor yesterday, and he could barely recognize me! I showed him my photo, and he said that I am at  a good consistent weight. He also said that I did not previously have cat scratch disease, as I was previously diagnosed. Instead he said that I had "Tiana was fat disease" but isn't anymore, so there will pockets of fat and skin that will just hang out forever, there not harmful, just there. He also gave me some warnings that since I am thin now, it will hurt to sit on hard surfaces, do certain activities, etc.... I told him that I already noticed these adverse effects.  I have often been told that I should wright a book, and one day I might. And in that book there will be a chapter entitled 103 problems of weight loss.

Oh, as for the exercising portion:  I had been in desperate need of a new swimsuit. After losing so much weight, the old one was not plausible to utilize. While we were in Utah this weekend, we stopped at a store called Scheels. As we were riding the Farris wheel located inside, I noticed that they had a section of swimsuits.  We headed over, and I tried on several. I was disappointed when I looked at the price tag.... 70 bucks! But then, after logically thinking about it for quite some time, I thought "Pay the 70 now and be healthy, or not pay the 70 bucks now, and get fat again, and then have to go back on Medifast again, which is way more expensive then 70 bucks." So, I did in fact purchase the new swimsuit!  I went swimming yesterday, that is always nice!

So, I know I haven't publicly posted my weight in several weeks, but I have been keeping a keen eye on the scale, I am consistently around 145, (it ranges from about 143-145), depending on the day, time of day, etc. So I am still, right where I need to be!

Mid-Week Party!

Yeah, I know its Friday... so what... who cares! This 18 credit unit gig... makes keeping up with this blog a bit on the tricky side when the going get's tough. But this week of midterms is now in the past, and I have four days until the next one, so I have an hour or so to update this, hopefully will less errors then the last one.... sorry folks.

This week, I went back on the weight loss phase of the program full fledged. It was nice to feel well again.

On Tuesday, I thought I had submitted a mini order--- until I checked the status of our finances and discovered that apparently a whole order went through... that sucks flying purple garbage monkeys, but at the same time two things have came out of it. I will have enough food to last the semester, and we actually had the finances to cover the error. 

Also on Tuesday, the bosses asked for photos and biographies for the companies website, I should them the one I wanted to utilize.... but they want my before and after one... to demonstrate to our clientele what healthy can become... and look like....Weird... I still need to write my biography, and I don't know what to put in it!

Wednesday, I did some research about some of the Greek foods that we consumed at the Greek Fest, because now I have to go and actually make the items... and holy crap! Now I know why I gained a lot of weight last weekend... tons of salt...and sugar...  and wine in the items. Oops.

This weekend (only on Saturday) is going to prove to be difficult. We are going to Fresno.... now the amusing reason that we are going home to Fresno is to get my wedding rings resized (a couple of sizes down) since they are annoyingly too big now. People in my classes have also commented how they have noticed that my rings are too big. I am highly concerned about losing them, and Roger's in Fresno has a jeweler that shrinks or expands rings on the premises, this translates to.... I don't have to the mail them, which I am not comfortable doing. 

Since we are going to be in town (for Saturday only) we are going to go to the fair... where delicious fattening treats await with temptation... I'll try to be good.

I have been keeping an eye on the scale,  and the scale revealed the numbers 140.... this equates to 105 total pounds wait loss. I want to have a "different" final photo taken.... with a specific background of flames, symbolizing  that I walked out of the hell and anguish that obesity is. I found a place here in Vegas that will do it for 100 bucks... I wonder if I could figure out how to Photoshop it myself.

I know its a couple of days late again this week... My apologies, its midterm week, and studying like a mad-man has taken priority. Last week, was rough. The Greek Food Fest was in town, and I went and snacked, and ate.... And got fat again. True story!

Greek food is my most favorite cuisine, the festival benefits a church, and I had to go for a class assignment.  I split the food with others, but none the less, it caused the scale to go back up immediately... I hit the 150 range (*insert gasp here*) at night.... I had a plan though, to go to the Greek Fest in the afternoon, only after attending Zumba (for the first time, ever) in the morning. I thought it all would balance itself out... until I hit that assorted desert station... and I bought a packages..... hmm... so very delectable, one-in-a-very-blue moon treats.. They are highly addictive, in case you were wondering. I had one snack out of that container, and put the rest in the freezer, with the plan to eat one a month... nope that didn't happen... I found myself wanting more and more and of those buggers. Then, in a moment's time, I decided to throw the rest away. I learned a lot that very minute.... I am still in control of my weight. I am still in charge of my body and what I feed it. Maintaining my fabulous new healthy weight, will be a lifelong battle, but its doable. This experience also let me to have an unbelievable amount of love and empathy towards other people who have experienced weight loss, and then gained weight promptly back. I now understand their struggles in a way that not many people can.

Yesterday, at the institute I decided to get some hot chocolate, as I was freezing and couldn't manage to get warm. I read the label, and leardned that it only had 30 calories, and decided why not. I'll have some. As I was walking  back to my seat, someone called me "Big T" my heart skipped a few beats, because only ONE Kellogg cousin has ever called me that, and It made me feel like people noticed I was ballooning up again.... This comment served as a reminder of what I don't want to be...... ever-ever-ever-again. 
 

Last night I had my monthly meeting at work... I arrived early,  but there was still a sufficient amount of people there. I walked in, the room stopped, people stared at me and offered the complement "DANG YOU LOOK!!! At which point the bosses bragged about my weight loss, and my final reveal photo was passed around.... everyone is still in awe about my journey, it's nice.  The bosses have continued to support me throughout my journey, and they are so proud of me, just like a family would be. The comments and support from them erased the negativity the I encountered earlier in the day.

 

One of my work-mate people asked if I was still doing the program, I said sort of, as I  took out a meal replacement from my backpack, stunned they asked if I am done losing weight, then why am I eating the foods. My first response was" cause I am hungry, and this is cheap good for you food! We giggled, then I explained to her about weaning myself off of the program.

Of  course it was a disappointing  time to gain the weight back, but at the same time, rewarding having the realization that I am in control, and having empathy towards others.

The scale today revealed the numbers 145.... so much better then the 150 number I saw Friday night!